Madness

Scattered thoughts tossed out like favors
Random patterns lost in time
Pithy quotes hold empty wishes
Witness poets discordant rhyme

Longing for a real companion
Reaching for the unclaimed prize
Disappointments, quests unanswered
Hope retreats before my eyes

Bring an ending to this longing
Tortured soul can dream no more
Take me from this life of madness
Dim the light and close the door

My Friend

It hurts something inside of me
to know that you're in pain
I'd find a way to turn back time
to make you smile again
and lift you up, my friend

I know there isn't anything
which I may say or do
to make this any easier
so I'll just stand with you
I'll always stand with you

Forever Changed

You will be forever changed
Not by the loss
Although it etches itself on your
heart
But by the gain
Knowing that you loved, really loved
and lost
It makes you more than
you were before
More understanding
More empathetic
More appreciative
More

Worth the love
the work, the loss
But she was
Oh she was

Love is always worth the loss
Rejoice!
For you have loved
and you are
Forever changed

When I lost my sister at only 22
I asked my mother
how she stood the loss
"I try to look at it this way"
she said
"When she was born, when they
put her in my arms, if they had told me
I could only have her for
22 years
I would have taken her anyway.
Anything less is saying
she wasn't worth it."

I can do this

I think I could do this
I do
If I could just figure out
how to get past the pain
the pain
the 50 foot wall of pain

If I can just stay
on task
I think I could do this
I'm sure others have done
and I
I'm sure I'm as strong as they

It's just reality
just that
that's trying to break me
I can face reality
I'm strong
I am I'm strong I am strong

It's just that it was so
Unexpected
You leaving like that
but
I can do this, I can

I can

Choices

I want to read no more hate
is there a place for me
I want to clear out the craziness
and anger that threatens to
sear my heart
I fear insanity

Where did the kindness go
it once was all around
Now hatred beats me down
at every turn and threatens
my very soul
I mourn humanity

Do we learn to take back
the love that once was ours
Or bow our heads in misery
giving in to our despair
and bitter tears
for all eternity

Summer in the Mountains

Brilliant shards of sunlight
Slicing through the trees
Butterflies like promises
Float on the breeze

Flickering of shadows
Battering my eyes
Summer in the mountains
Dazzling surprise