Losing Battle

I can only say
in truth
that I can't fight you anymore
Fight you, or fight for you
The end is the same

You seemingly
have no interest
In meeting me halfway
And now I feel the bitterness
of losing what I'd gained

Realizing
only now
I cannot win this fight
I haven't got the strength
To help you do what's right

Falling

I'm breaking I'm falling
Limbs quaking
I'm shaking
Not knowing
What's coming
I'm breaking
I'm falling

I'm trembling I'm rambling
I'm scrambling
I'm calling
Your name
Hear me calling
Please catch me
I'm falling

I'm dreaming I'm praying
I'm hoping
You're saying
You'll love me
Unchanging
Keep hoping
I'm praying

This life ever changing
Not knowing
I'm saying
With you
I'm falling
In love with you
Always
Please catch me
I'm falling

Unfinished business

Conversations in my head
The things that must remain unsaid
The endless tortures in my mind
The peace that I have yet to find

Attempting to have some resolve
Angry words endlessly revolve

These things I cannot say aloud
As tearful thoughts within me crowd

So round and round within my mind
To keep from thinking thoughts unkind
I picture finding some release
In hopes someday, I'll find some peace

Summer's Chorus

Speak to me, oh summer rain
Fill my mind with measured patter
Help me find my peace again
Concentrate on things that matter
Quiet thoughts 'mid splendid splatter

Speak to me, oh summer chorus
Crickets, frogs and leaves in motion
With your song you help restore us
Bringing peace from mixed emotion
Drugging me with summers potion

Breathing in the thick, rich flavors
Of a summer night alone
Deep and subtle, mine to savor
In my mind, it takes me home
Summer nights, here I belong

Friendship

I'd like to raise my glass today
To all the friends I've led astray
To dancing 'til the break of day
I raise my glass to you

I humbly beg a chance to say
That through it all, yes every day
I knew my friends were here to stay
The brave, the proud, the few

And through the years I've had the chance
To add a few, and thus enhance
This crazy life, which, at a glance
Seems rudderless, it's true

But, I can tell you, friends of mine
That through it all, and through all time
I know my life's been made sublime
By every one of you

Flawed

How I loathe the break of day
Where all my failings come to light
No longer safe from prying eyes
Well hidden in the night
Oh, please, hold back the light

How I dread the morning sun
Who's cheerful light shows all my flaws
Where careless words and thoughtless deeds
Show glaringly for all to see
The helpless mess that's really me

I know that I can't find a way
To hold at bay the coming dawn
Yet, how to greet the coming light
Ashamed, destroyed, I can't move on
Reveal my flaws, oh heartless dawn

Serendipity

Please let me try to explain
the situation
It's really almost comical
you see
For though the tears I'm crying
are a heartbreak
It's poetic that it's happening
to me

I really can't complain
about the cause
I truly understand it,
have no doubt
I'm sure somehow we'll get through
all this heartache we are feeling
And wonder what the tears
were all about

But not today
and maybe not tomorrow

Create

Art makes our hearts sing
Hopes soar
Souls take wing

Poetry lets our hearts speak
Souls listen
Lives less bleak

Music melts our hearts pain
Lifts burdens
Frees us again

Art is inspiration
Poetry gives it voice
Music is love

These Tears

These tears are almost more
than I can bear
They sting and burn and choke me
from within
I scarcely can remember how
to breathe
I feel a stranger lost in
my own skin

The tears they burn like acid
on my cheek
Despair so overwhelming
I am blind
How can I put one foot before
the other
When blinded by the pain in my
own mind

I want to curl myself around
this pain
whether hoping to alleviate
or spare
I breathe around this lump
my hearts become
Shards of shattered hopes
pierce everywhere

Don't leave me

However will I manage without you
The implications threaten all my dreams
I can't imagine life without your
possibilities
My future is unraveling at the seams

You cannot know the measure of your life
Without an indicator to compare
You were my indicator, my compass
my own truth
Without you I am left with my despair

Don't leave me please
Don't go
I can't explain
The sense of helplessness your leaving brings
All conscious thoughts are melting into
puddles at my feet
I'm lost without the compass your truth brings

Please hold me to a truth
that's yours alone
I willingly surrender, no regrets
I shan't complain, I promise
I happily concede
Just love me, as I've loved you
since we met

Third Child

You are unlike any other
Born as old as Timbuktu
Razor sharp, this little brother
There is no one quite like you

Brazen, fearless, bold and daring
Stubborn when you want your way
Quick to offer hugs and kisses
Sunshine smile that lights my day

You, dear boy, are an enigma
Still don't feel I have your measure
I know we're in for more surprises
Pirate smile hides buried treasure

My Sweet Sisters Child

My, how you shine
Like sunlight on water
You sparkle, you glow
Amazing and kind
My sweet sisters daughter
Decided I want you to know
How much I've loved watching you grow

You dazzle the senses
Whenever you smile
Your laughter is joyful
and wicked and wild
You're strong and you're gentle
Your heart makes me smile
I love you immensely
My sweet sisters child

No recourse

I can admit I didn't know
I had no way to measure sorrow
Then in a moment all was changed
and now for me there's no tomorrow

Perhaps for others there is hope
and reasons to get up each day
Sadly, I can find no answers
Just emptiness that does not fade

I'm contemplating ways to end
This dreadful journey life's become
I know it's cowardly and wrong
I just don't care to carry on
This life, this journey I am on

No more kisses

No more kisses can I give you
No more hugs before goodbye
No more laughter shared between us
Only tears for me to cry
Endless tears for me to cry

Frenzy

When I'm in a rush and frenzy
Fearing I will lose my mind
Frantic thoughts feel quite like
madness
Search for things I cannot find

You are there to slow my frenzy
You the calm amid my storm
Soothing smiles and gentle
kisses
Sheltered there within your arms

Nearing midnight, you lie sleeping
I'm awake, again, it seems
Smiling to myself in darkness
Knowing you are all my dreams

A Loss Too Great

My mind knows it must set you free
But, what then, of my heart
My heart knows this just cannot be
it has right from the start

For tell me, if you know a way
To stop this dulling pain
To learn to live without my heart
To help me breathe again

They tell me I must say goodbye
The time has come to part
But, tell me, how am I to live
For I've a broken heart

Last Goodbye

I did not know, 'til now
Although I thought I might
How hurried loves last flight
How quietly it came
How measured were the breaths
When last you said my name

The anguish of goodbye

Hands clasped in deep despair
Can't hold you to these shores
Each measured breath I take
Is measured against yours

For though I try to grasp
The time has now arrived
My heart now beats alone
Heartbreaking last goodbye

Last September

Memories upon a page
Of what I can remember
Shades of light upon your face
Smiles of last September

Bits of conversations shared
Funny things you told me
Wanting just to hear your voice
Have your arms to hold me

Sweet, the heartache memories bring
Aching, full of longing
Linger through the night unslept
Day around me dawning

Photographs of your bright face
Help me to remember
How I yearn to turn back time
And relive last September