Just Once

I want to be foolish
Let the wind take me where it will
Without thought or worry
Of consequence
Once
Just once
Before I have to go

I want to stare life down
Take the bit in my teeth and run with it
Without need of
destination
Just that
Just once
Before my time is done

I want to be courageous
To let life take me where it may
Without fear or worry
Of losing myself
Once
Just once
Breathe deeply, let go regret

Miles Apart

There was a time, a lovely time
In all the years gone by
When we could sit and talk for hours
And while away the afternoons
We'd smile away the afternoons
The dreamy lovely afternoons
In all the years gone by

Then came a time, a lonely time
When you were gone away
We felt the years pull us apart
And distance now was more than miles
A sorry state to find ourselves
How did we lose our way

Can we get back to where we were
In all the years gone by
The happier times when we could share
Our random thoughts with subtle flair
Or are there only memories there
And shall we say goodbye

Go

I have found a different muse
who'll do the things you would not do
and though I'm grieved it isn't you
it was you who did refuse

Don't look at me with tragic eyes
it wasn't I who caused the rift
withholding of your lovely gift
Instead you gave me lies

Now is the time for you to go
I care not for your sad lament
I grieve for all the time I spent
on a love that did not grow

Now you're gone and I am free
I'll find the joy you would not share
Another love will take me there
Oh, broken hearted me

I shall bring you love

I shall bring love to you
and with it sunshine to warm your days
I shall bring to you all the
tenderness you crave
I will stand by you through every storm
I shall bring you love

You will stand strong
no worries or fears can break you now
for you know
I will always be right here
You will know the strength
being loved brings

For we are meant to be
to spend our lives together
I knew it from the first
I know you feel the same
Together we are invincible
Because you bring me love
And I give it back to you

He walks with Grace

He always lands on rocky shores
Yet never does he stumble there
Nor moan nor weep at his cruel fate
But struggles on with head held high
More concerned with what he has
than what is so unfair

And so in life, it seems to me
There are those whose daily lives
Are filled with more than average woes
Who never seem to touch the prize
Yet without fail they carry on
Shoulders squared and head held high

I cannot help but to admire
The quiet strength and comely grace
He brings to each and every trial
The way he takes it all in stride
No obstacles will slow him down
His strength of will upon his face
His life is lead with quiet grace

Heart of a Child

Have you ever had your heartstrings
tugged so hard
you lost your breath
and tears sprang to your eyes
Isn't it grand

Tonight as I lay quietly
and tried to soothe two
children to sleep
The youngest being not quite 3
a darling girl of spunk and fire
her brother lying close beside
a whispered lilting lullaby
meant to sooth and quiet them
I love you Vivien Grace
I love you Brycen Cole
Stroke a forehead calm a hand
I love you Vivien Grace
I love you Brycen Cole

As they slowly quiet down
and sleep seems to be taking them
I hear the words
that stroked my heartstrings
wrapped up my heart and strummed
my soul
a spunky girl of almost three
whispers her own goodnight
To her brother of four
I love you too, Brycen Cole

Late Night Secrets

Late night careful whispers shared
Sweet excitement in his eyes
Special memories waiting there
this little boy with sweetest smile
my stolen heart becomes his prize

Who could know the times we'd share
the secrets that were whispered then
the magic I would witness there
when nose to nose our
eyes would meet
He'd place his little hand in mine
and slowly drift off into sleep
Heart now full, life complete

Self Awareness

I understand
I get what has been going on
with me for so long

I have been holding back
I need to hug someone
for a long time

and I know who that
someone is
are you up for it

Great

To Life

Through all that life has brought to me
the difficult and cruel
the endless tears for untold wounds
of countless lies and fickle youth
the things that I cannot change
these tragedies remain

yet, what I find most fascinates
what occupies my waking
thoughts
is not that life has dealt me wrong
or that I suffer more than most
it's that with all the counted tears
Life still brings such great  joy
and I am sane and strong

I find that I am easily
mystified by life and love
each loss of immeasurable pain
is balanced by delightful gain
so that I know by holding fast
the light I seek shall show itself
and treasures unbeknownst before
reveal themselves at last

And so I weep and moan and cry
when life so fragile takes its toll
and takes away some treasure mine
no measure of fairness found
Yet, still and all it passes on
And I rejoice at loves sheer pleasure
and know, with each sad, broken treasure
I drank deeply the sweet wine

DANCE

I heard a quote the other day
it went something like this
If perchance you should stumble
on unfamiliar terrain
do not bother to right yourself
rather, take a quick step or two
and dance away the pain

For life is full of missteps
of potholes, uneven roads
and sure as life is a journey
the road is uneven at best
so make every stumble a
pirouette
And life will be yours to finesse