Scream

Do you ever have a day
where nothing seems to please you
A day where everything feels like
sandpaper on your skin
Abrasively scraping away
all feelings of contentment
Until you just want to
SCREAM

Yeah,
Me too

When Darkness Beckons

When I am low and broken
By this struggle my life's become
When darkness threatens to close in
My friends are there to see me home

A cooling rain on fevered brow
Gentle caress to my tortured soul
Beacon of light in my darkest hour
Supporting hands when I'm feeling low

I thank you all who stand beside me
Through all my dark times of duress
You are my trusted cooling rain
You are my life's gentle caress

Lost Time

I want to spend some time with you
Just us
No agenda, no one else
to account for
Just us
Some time to sit and talk
Laugh
Get to know each other
and share what we
will
To say I love you
without words
just time spent
Laughing
Talking
Learning
about each other
building trust
learning to be
at home
I want this
so badly
affirmation after
loneliness
and despair
Hearts uplifted
by caring
Let's make this
Happen

Over

She stares at his face
as if to memorize
And wonders if he even sees her

Does he see she is drowning
Does he even care
Can he tell that she's leaving
Will he notice she's not there

When she's gone will he miss her
Will it matter in the end
Can't he see that it's over
Her heart's broken,
time will mend

Warmth

When I snuggle
Up to you
It may seem
I only want

To steal your

Warmth
That I only want you
For the comfort

Your warmth brings

Not so

You are more
To me
Than the sum of

Your warm parts

But
Oh
How I love
All of
Your warm parts

Remnants

I know that you don't want me
To put my cold foot
On your warm one
Over there 

On your side of the bed

I understand

I don't think you realize
I am just as happy
To put my cold foot
In the warm spot
You just vacated

I am content
With the remnants
Left by
Your warm body

Tree

He stands
Silent sentinel
Holding up the edge
of the mountain
Stately bones exposed
by time and elements
Majestic limbs
Pointing home

Elbow Room

I need some time that's just my own
I need a quiet place
I'm jumbled up and tied in knots
I'm lost without a trace

I need some space to clear my head
Can't think for all the noise
I'm losing touch, and I can't breathe
Can't hear my inner voice

I want some time to just be still
And listen to the trees
The gentle breeze, a rustling tune
As it dances through the leaves

It's there I'll make some elbow room
I'll get a chance to breathe
I'll let the quiet creep inside
And hope it never leaves

Her Shadow

Her shadow follows him
Slipping softly from room to room
Where there are no echoes
To combat the silence

His memories entomb him
Whispering of lost dreams
Tearing at his sanity
With velvet longing

He knows he should move on
But he isn't interested
Her shadow follows him
And he welcomes it

You

How is it possible
that just pressing my leg to yours
can so relax me
Or that running my fingers down
your sleeping back
can completely soothe
my inner turmoil

What is this magic you possess
Where just hearing you sigh
as I run my fingers through your hair
fills my heart with such peace
Perhaps it is you
for you are my home

Misunderstood

Is there no place I can feel safe
Where I can be myself
And the people I love will see me
As I really am
My real intent
My real purpose

What have I done
When did I become this person
Whom everyone assumes the worst of
Why can't I disagree
Without being accused of
Ulterior motives

Just when I think I have
Turned a corner
Begin to feel safe
Start to reach out, speak out
I am reminded not to be too sure
Don't say too much
Don't express a differing point of view

Don't make waves
Don't rock the boat
They don't like that

Loneliness in a crowded life

Bereft

Carry me away from here
Lead me from this darkest night
For I am bereft
I have lost my way
I cannot recall the light of day
Abandoned by the light

For life has had it's way with me
I feel more damaged than can be born
My spirit is broken
I cannot go on
I need safe harbor from this storm
I need to rest my weary soul
Your love can light my way back home

Midnight

Memories call softly in the night hours
Poignant pictures of your smile
Dimly, laughter echoes in my ears
Hitching of my breath
Eyes collecting tears

I lay awake and count my breaths
Sleep eludes me once again
Here, alone, I flip through memories
Bringing you to life again
Brightest memories of my friend

Wishing I had one more memory
One more chance to laugh with you
Hear your voice, sweetest timbre
One more smile to see me through
One more day to spend with you

Memory Lane

Sitting with you in the afternoon sunshine
talking of things so long in our past
Story for story, we share tales of our history
Sweetest recall of days that have passed

These are the moments that must be discovered
These are the memories we'll hold in our hearts
Afternoons spent in laughter and sharing
Store them as treasures for when we must part