He listens
Even when he knows the answers
He listens
With patience plainly there to see
His face holds no intolerance
He listens
And when my heart can speak no more
He lets the healing silence be
No need to answer questions posed
He knows the answers lie in me
He doesn't offer platitudes
His comfort lies in quiet air
A safer place I have not found
My burdens left on quiet ground
I always find my comfort there
Where he listens
Sunday, December 28, 2014
Extraordinary
She doesn't know the way she adds
to my life
If I were to tell her she wouldn't
understand
She feels so ordinary
When really she's quite grand
At times she's aggravating
No one's perfect after all
Yet I know our time grows
short now
The writings on the wall
And the thought of life
without her
Has me feeling rather small
So for now I am the strong one
The roles have turned around
She was my rock in life's dark times
She was my solid ground
She's still a force, a gentle power
Within my heart she'll always be
my strength
my conscience, my best champion
The best a mom can be
to my life
If I were to tell her she wouldn't
understand
She feels so ordinary
When really she's quite grand
At times she's aggravating
No one's perfect after all
Yet I know our time grows
short now
The writings on the wall
And the thought of life
without her
Has me feeling rather small
So for now I am the strong one
The roles have turned around
She was my rock in life's dark times
She was my solid ground
She's still a force, a gentle power
Within my heart she'll always be
my strength
my conscience, my best champion
The best a mom can be
Monday, December 22, 2014
Beauty and Despair
Traveling the road
Of beauty and despair
A convoluted journey, truth be told
That two such vastly different means
A convoluted journey, truth be told
That two such vastly different means
Of sight and heart
Should blend so seamlessly
Should blend so seamlessly
Seems hardly possible
Yet hand in hand
Yet hand in hand
Through bitter life they go
At times inseparable
At times inseparable
if truth be told
There is a fair beauty
There is a fair beauty
In despair
A tantalizing anguish found in
A tantalizing anguish found in
Shattered dreams
The tormenting destruction
Of our sweetest hopes
Remnants swirling broken at our feet
Hold fascination for us in the
Remnants swirling broken at our feet
Hold fascination for us in the
Sweet despair
And beauty in the tatters
Of our dreams
Thursday, December 11, 2014
For S
There is sunshine in her smile
with caution round the edges
as if she isn't sure she is safe
and trust is a fragile commodity
She finds value in herself
through love
the loving of her family
the sweet care for her children
They make her whole
She understands her value as
a mother
A wife
Fiercely devoted
Strongly opinionated
Absolutely involved
What she doesn't see
is common to us all
That her value is,
and always has been
in who she is
inside
where no one sees
That is where her
true beauty lies
She is ferociously beautiful
I stand in awe
with caution round the edges
as if she isn't sure she is safe
and trust is a fragile commodity
She finds value in herself
through love
the loving of her family
the sweet care for her children
They make her whole
She understands her value as
a mother
A wife
Fiercely devoted
Strongly opinionated
Absolutely involved
What she doesn't see
is common to us all
That her value is,
and always has been
in who she is
inside
where no one sees
That is where her
true beauty lies
She is ferociously beautiful
I stand in awe
Random Acts of Brycen-age 4
He will put on my high heeled
open toe sandals and walk around
knowing it's funny
grinning with glee
He will wrap his arm around my neck
and deliver
random kisses
just because he feels like it
He will want all of my attention
and lose his mind
if he doesn't get it
He will ask for whipped cream
squirted right into his mouth
laughing when it overflows
He will ask for turns swinging
with me on the "big swing"
even though it scares him
because he wants to try
He will melt your heart
as easily as the sun
melts snow
Because he is joy
in a little package
open toe sandals and walk around
knowing it's funny
grinning with glee
He will wrap his arm around my neck
and deliver
random kisses
just because he feels like it
He will want all of my attention
and lose his mind
if he doesn't get it
He will ask for whipped cream
squirted right into his mouth
laughing when it overflows
He will ask for turns swinging
with me on the "big swing"
even though it scares him
because he wants to try
He will melt your heart
as easily as the sun
melts snow
Because he is joy
in a little package
Friday, December 5, 2014
Chasing Air
And now I must find my way home
for I've wandered far, far too long
I am disheveled and lost
years chasing a dream
that was never to be
longing to find my way home
if home is still waiting for me
I learned in my wanderings afar
that life is not getting your dreams
for dreams oft lack substance and then
we attain them and find they were air
the things that we wanted weren't there
for places like home are too rare
and all of our loved ones are there
I know I will find my way home
the pull of my hunger is strong
I hunger for loved ones around me
I hunger to feel I belong
And when I arrive there, I'll know
the joy that can only derive
from knowing the safety of love
and home is where love is alive
for I've wandered far, far too long
I am disheveled and lost
years chasing a dream
that was never to be
longing to find my way home
if home is still waiting for me
I learned in my wanderings afar
that life is not getting your dreams
for dreams oft lack substance and then
we attain them and find they were air
the things that we wanted weren't there
for places like home are too rare
and all of our loved ones are there
I know I will find my way home
the pull of my hunger is strong
I hunger for loved ones around me
I hunger to feel I belong
And when I arrive there, I'll know
the joy that can only derive
from knowing the safety of love
and home is where love is alive
Oh, I Remember
He stood alone among the crowd
Or so it seemed to me
A careless carefree attitude
Aloof, alluring pensive mood
Creating reserved solitude
or so it seemed to me
I worked to keep him in my view
To garner any telltale sign
of if he was here alone
A profile fit for chiseled stone
Perfection of mere skin and bone
In every sculptured line
My fascination knew no bounds
I stumbled round the growing throng
Unsure of what I hoped to gain
If I could even learn his name
Would fascination still remain
or would it all go wrong
So close I now can hear him speak
His voice is low, yet firm and strong
I search for something smart to say
Before he can wander away
And take the sunlight from my day
I must not wait too long
I hurry forward head held high
I raise my voice in salutation
My eyes are on the final prize
and so miss what before me lies
A table laden with assorted pies
My public humiliation
And so would come an end it seems
To my infatuation
Except to say this man of means
Turned out to be the man
of my dreams
as I sat amid assorted creams
He rose to the occasion
Or so it seemed to me
A careless carefree attitude
Aloof, alluring pensive mood
Creating reserved solitude
or so it seemed to me
I worked to keep him in my view
To garner any telltale sign
of if he was here alone
A profile fit for chiseled stone
Perfection of mere skin and bone
In every sculptured line
My fascination knew no bounds
I stumbled round the growing throng
Unsure of what I hoped to gain
If I could even learn his name
Would fascination still remain
or would it all go wrong
So close I now can hear him speak
His voice is low, yet firm and strong
I search for something smart to say
Before he can wander away
And take the sunlight from my day
I must not wait too long
I hurry forward head held high
I raise my voice in salutation
My eyes are on the final prize
and so miss what before me lies
A table laden with assorted pies
My public humiliation
And so would come an end it seems
To my infatuation
Except to say this man of means
Turned out to be the man
of my dreams
as I sat amid assorted creams
He rose to the occasion
Inner Thoughts
The voices have been so quiet
I feel I'm all alone
There's a peacefulness within me
It's nice to feel alone
At first I felt uneasy
Not used to empty air
And then I felt calmer
being all alone in there
The voices have been so quiet
my thoughts are still and calm
I've room to think more clearly
I'll breathe, then carry on
I feel I'm all alone
There's a peacefulness within me
It's nice to feel alone
At first I felt uneasy
Not used to empty air
And then I felt calmer
being all alone in there
The voices have been so quiet
my thoughts are still and calm
I've room to think more clearly
I'll breathe, then carry on
Family
Gathering people to me
pulling them closer so their
heartbeats drum through my skin
Wrapping my arms around their lives
Gathering them all in
to make a home
Bring your unsung love songs
The dreams you've kept secret
far too long
We'll sing the songs together
and paint your dreams
on a summer sky
And this will be my family
The lonely, the lovely, forgotten or
displaced
The gentle sweet strangers
my loved ones to embrace
I cannot explain why
I gather them to me
pulling them closer so their
heartbeats drum through my skin
Wrapping my arms around their lives
Gathering them all in
to make a home
Bring your unsung love songs
The dreams you've kept secret
far too long
We'll sing the songs together
and paint your dreams
on a summer sky
And this will be my family
The lonely, the lovely, forgotten or
displaced
The gentle sweet strangers
my loved ones to embrace
I cannot explain why
I gather them to me
Gone
I can't write
I can't think
I can't feel
I can't find my way
I can't smile
I can't cry
I can't breathe
I can't find my way
I can't sing
I can't talk
I can't see
I can't find my way
It's all gone
It's all wrecked
It's all done
It's all gone away
There's no joy
There's no love
There's no hope
It's all gone away
It's all gone away
It's all gone
I can't think
I can't feel
I can't find my way
I can't smile
I can't cry
I can't breathe
I can't find my way
I can't sing
I can't talk
I can't see
I can't find my way
It's all gone
It's all wrecked
It's all done
It's all gone away
There's no joy
There's no love
There's no hope
It's all gone away
It's all gone away
It's all gone
Monday, November 24, 2014
Life is for the strong
Can you feel your bones bending
from the weight you must support
do you feel the endless raging
as turmoil wreaks your soul
as tragedy kills your soul
as you live forever more
Why do you listen to them
they only bring you low
can you bear the ceaseless echoes
of life's sad emptiness
this grasping emptiness
life's delicate abyss
When life is going nowhere
and you know it's killing you
will you stand and make a difference
can you hope to build anew
or is life killing you
no dreams are coming true
from the weight you must support
do you feel the endless raging
as turmoil wreaks your soul
as tragedy kills your soul
as you live forever more
Why do you listen to them
they only bring you low
can you bear the ceaseless echoes
of life's sad emptiness
this grasping emptiness
life's delicate abyss
When life is going nowhere
and you know it's killing you
will you stand and make a difference
can you hope to build anew
or is life killing you
no dreams are coming true
Second Serenade
Did you hear me playing softly
out your window last night
My music sifting lightly through
the trees
The serenade I played for you
To lull you into dreams
My music drumming on the
new spring leaves
Did you notice that I held you
wrapped in softest summer air
Did it comfort you to know
that I was here
Do you understand the messages
I'm sending on the wind
The ones that tell you I am
somehow near
Breathe deeply my sweet darling
Let life's music bring you ease
Let time bring you the solace that you
need
And if you listen closely
you'll hear my whispered song
For I'm singing to you on each
errant breeze
out your window last night
My music sifting lightly through
the trees
The serenade I played for you
To lull you into dreams
My music drumming on the
new spring leaves
Did you notice that I held you
wrapped in softest summer air
Did it comfort you to know
that I was here
Do you understand the messages
I'm sending on the wind
The ones that tell you I am
somehow near
Breathe deeply my sweet darling
Let life's music bring you ease
Let time bring you the solace that you
need
And if you listen closely
you'll hear my whispered song
For I'm singing to you on each
errant breeze
Gathered Stems
Beautiful the bounty of my
gathered stems
Dainty petals scattered on the floor
Brilliant are the jeweled hues lying there
Random patterns by the garden door
Pretty as a painting, petals on the floor
gathered stems
Dainty petals scattered on the floor
Brilliant are the jeweled hues lying there
Random patterns by the garden door
Pretty as a painting, petals on the floor
Ferguson
Tragedy, infamy, destiny, legacy
Ferguson, Missouri
Misery
Family
Endlessly
Calling me
Begging me
Witness me
Telling me
You must see
What no one sees
No transparency
Given me
How can I see
Hidden from me
Help me see
Is killing free
Or destiny
Or killing spree
Or simply tragedy
Our world is mourning
Or it should be
Ferguson, Missouri
Misery
Family
Endlessly
Calling me
Begging me
Witness me
Telling me
You must see
What no one sees
No transparency
Given me
How can I see
Hidden from me
Help me see
Is killing free
Or destiny
Or killing spree
Or simply tragedy
Our world is mourning
Or it should be
Outcry
There's so much noise
So much confusion
Reality growing thin
I need escape
A grand illusion
Far from where I've been
I'm all used up
No longer youthful
Life has worn me down
Stop being kind
Try being truthful
Just say what's on your mind
No end in sight
Unless I make one
There's nowhere left to hide
I need a break
I'm going crazy
Life will not be denied
So much confusion
Reality growing thin
I need escape
A grand illusion
Far from where I've been
I'm all used up
No longer youthful
Life has worn me down
Stop being kind
Try being truthful
Just say what's on your mind
No end in sight
Unless I make one
There's nowhere left to hide
I need a break
I'm going crazy
Life will not be denied
Lonely Girl
Each day I see her passing by
And wonder at her saddened state
I wonder what her story is
What led her to this tragic fate
What is she so frightened by
Huddled in her lonely space
Fragile, desperate lonely girl
Caught up in a darker place
Huddled behind her frightened face
Searching for a safer place
There is no hope within her heart
She walks with careful measured pace
Arms wrapped tight around her frame
Moving with unconscious grace
Loneliness upon her face
Searching for a safer place
Desperate girl, alone and frail
Huddled with unfailing grace
Will your searching bring you peace
Hopelessness etched on your face
Will you find your safer place
Or disappear without a trace
Autumn Walk
Rush of wind, a tumbling breeze
Fills the air with crispy leaves
Crackling path beneath my shoes
Autumn making love to trees
Works of Autumn's wonder
Tantalize the eye
Song of rustling leaves
Autumn's flying by
Fills the air with crispy leaves
Crackling path beneath my shoes
Autumn making love to trees
Works of Autumn's wonder
Tantalize the eye
Song of rustling leaves
Autumn's flying by
Ups and Downs
I want roller coaster
No Ferris wheel for me
No round and round that
Merry go round
That's not the life for me
I crave the roller coaster
It's crazy twists and turns
The highs and lows that
everyone knows are the
Thrills for which I yearn
My life's a roller coaster
for me the perfect ride
I'll live it all
No fear I'll fall
With you here by my side
No Ferris wheel for me
No round and round that
Merry go round
That's not the life for me
I crave the roller coaster
It's crazy twists and turns
The highs and lows that
everyone knows are the
Thrills for which I yearn
My life's a roller coaster
for me the perfect ride
I'll live it all
No fear I'll fall
With you here by my side
Struggles
I'm going to get some sleep
tonight
I say with fingers crossed
I'll lay me down
and snuggle in
Tonight I'll rule the darkness
I close my eyes
and count to ten
Then I count to twenty
Don't be upset
Don't give up yet
Perhaps it's just too early
tonight
I say with fingers crossed
I'll lay me down
and snuggle in
Tonight I'll rule the darkness
I close my eyes
and count to ten
Then I count to twenty
Don't be upset
Don't give up yet
Perhaps it's just too early
Friday, November 7, 2014
Just My Opinion
Seems to me that lately
more than ever so before
people bent on sharing
unsolicited opinions galore
I know that we all have them
I certainly have mine
And we're all so proud to share them
with anyone, any time
Too bad this present frenzy
doesn't extend to doing deeds
We should keep our own opinions
And ask what people need
more than ever so before
people bent on sharing
unsolicited opinions galore
I know that we all have them
I certainly have mine
And we're all so proud to share them
with anyone, any time
Too bad this present frenzy
doesn't extend to doing deeds
We should keep our own opinions
And ask what people need
Thursday, November 6, 2014
We are hope
Quietly
Flying under the radar
Carefully
Making slow progress
Gently
Everything is fragile
Purposefully
Keep it all in line
Barely
Keeping hold of our reason
Tentatively
Reaching out for support
Wondrously
Finding hope where none
flourished
Gloriously
Light shines on a new day
Flying under the radar
Carefully
Making slow progress
Gently
Everything is fragile
Purposefully
Keep it all in line
Barely
Keeping hold of our reason
Tentatively
Reaching out for support
Wondrously
Finding hope where none
flourished
Gloriously
Light shines on a new day
Sunday, November 2, 2014
Choices
I know you said you were going
I thought that I knew what that meant
I thought that you were being heroic
and I thought there was time to be spent
I didn't know then what you meant
I only just got what you meant
The last time we talked was so easy
Grim reaper and time had no say
you told me you had it all figured
and you now saw clearly your way
A way to spend every last day
I didn't know this was your way
Now all that I knew is in tatters
Our plans have no substance, they're gone
My hands held before me are empty
I have no way left to hold on
Each dream I held close is now gone
No life shared with you, it's all gone
Nothing is as I had planned it
The world is now barren and dry
all dreams run like paint in a rainstorm
The only thing left is goodbye
I don't think our love was a lie
Yet, all I have left is goodbye
I thought that I knew what that meant
I thought that you were being heroic
and I thought there was time to be spent
I didn't know then what you meant
I only just got what you meant
The last time we talked was so easy
Grim reaper and time had no say
you told me you had it all figured
and you now saw clearly your way
A way to spend every last day
I didn't know this was your way
Now all that I knew is in tatters
Our plans have no substance, they're gone
My hands held before me are empty
I have no way left to hold on
Each dream I held close is now gone
No life shared with you, it's all gone
Nothing is as I had planned it
The world is now barren and dry
all dreams run like paint in a rainstorm
The only thing left is goodbye
I don't think our love was a lie
Yet, all I have left is goodbye
For You
Life keeps pulling at me
Untold invoices accumulating
Nothing left to pay the piper
Resources at an all time low
Tapped Out
Then you call
Leaving short messages
Asking innocuous questions
How are you?
Can you call me?
And I am at full alert
Untapped resources
Ready to tackle any issues
For you
For you
I am reenergized
Rejuvenated
Reborn
For, you are my world
My friend
My concern
My joy
And for you
I am inexhaustible
Untold invoices accumulating
Nothing left to pay the piper
Resources at an all time low
Tapped Out
Then you call
Leaving short messages
Asking innocuous questions
How are you?
Can you call me?
And I am at full alert
Untapped resources
Ready to tackle any issues
For you
For you
I am reenergized
Rejuvenated
Reborn
For, you are my world
My friend
My concern
My joy
And for you
I am inexhaustible
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Scream
Do you ever have a day
where nothing seems to please you
A day where everything feels like
sandpaper on your skin
Abrasively scraping away
all feelings of contentment
Until you just want to
SCREAM
Yeah,
Me too
where nothing seems to please you
A day where everything feels like
sandpaper on your skin
Abrasively scraping away
all feelings of contentment
Until you just want to
SCREAM
Yeah,
Me too
When Darkness Beckons
When I am low and broken
By this struggle my life's become
When darkness threatens to close in
My friends are there to see me home
A cooling rain on fevered brow
Gentle caress to my tortured soul
Beacon of light in my darkest hour
Supporting hands when I'm feeling low
I thank you all who stand beside me
Through all my dark times of duress
You are my trusted cooling rain
You are my life's gentle caress
By this struggle my life's become
When darkness threatens to close in
My friends are there to see me home
A cooling rain on fevered brow
Gentle caress to my tortured soul
Beacon of light in my darkest hour
Supporting hands when I'm feeling low
I thank you all who stand beside me
Through all my dark times of duress
You are my trusted cooling rain
You are my life's gentle caress
Monday, October 27, 2014
Lost Time
I want to spend some time with you
Just us
No agenda, no one else
to account for
Just us
Some time to sit and talk
Laugh
Get to know each other
and share what we
will
To say I love you
without words
just time spent
Laughing
Talking
Learning
about each other
building trust
learning to be
at home
I want this
so badly
affirmation after
loneliness
and despair
Hearts uplifted
by caring
Let's make this
Happen
Just us
No agenda, no one else
to account for
Just us
Some time to sit and talk
Laugh
Get to know each other
and share what we
will
To say I love you
without words
just time spent
Laughing
Talking
Learning
about each other
building trust
learning to be
at home
I want this
so badly
affirmation after
loneliness
and despair
Hearts uplifted
by caring
Let's make this
Happen
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Over
She stares at his face
as if to memorize
And wonders if he even sees her
Does he see she is drowning
Does he even care
Can he tell that she's leaving
Will he notice she's not there
When she's gone will he miss her
Will it matter in the end
Can't he see that it's over
Her heart's broken,
time will mend
as if to memorize
And wonders if he even sees her
Does he see she is drowning
Does he even care
Can he tell that she's leaving
Will he notice she's not there
When she's gone will he miss her
Will it matter in the end
Can't he see that it's over
Her heart's broken,
time will mend
Warmth
When I snuggle
Up to you
It may seem
I only want
But
Oh
How I love
All of
Your warm parts
Up to you
It may seem
I only want
To steal your
Warmth
That I only want you
For the comfort
That I only want you
For the comfort
Your warmth brings
Not so
You are more
To me
Than the sum of
Not so
You are more
To me
Than the sum of
Your warm parts
But
Oh
How I love
All of
Your warm parts
Remnants
I know that you don't want me
To put my cold foot
On your warm one
Over there
To put my cold foot
On your warm one
Over there
On your side of the bed
I understand
I don't think you realize
I am just as happy
To put my cold foot
In the warm spot
You just vacated
I am content
With the remnants
Left by
Your warm body
I understand
I don't think you realize
I am just as happy
To put my cold foot
In the warm spot
You just vacated
I am content
With the remnants
Left by
Your warm body
Tree
He stands
Silent sentinel
Holding up the edge
of the mountain
Stately bones exposed
by time and elements
Majestic limbs
Pointing home
Silent sentinel
Holding up the edge
of the mountain
Stately bones exposed
by time and elements
Majestic limbs
Pointing home
Elbow Room
I need some time that's just my own
I need a quiet place
I'm jumbled up and tied in knots
I'm lost without a trace
I need some space to clear my head
Can't think for all the noise
I'm losing touch, and I can't breathe
Can't hear my inner voice
I want some time to just be still
And listen to the trees
The gentle breeze, a rustling tune
As it dances through the leaves
It's there I'll make some elbow room
I'll get a chance to breathe
I'll let the quiet creep inside
And hope it never leaves
I need a quiet place
I'm jumbled up and tied in knots
I'm lost without a trace
I need some space to clear my head
Can't think for all the noise
I'm losing touch, and I can't breathe
Can't hear my inner voice
I want some time to just be still
And listen to the trees
The gentle breeze, a rustling tune
As it dances through the leaves
It's there I'll make some elbow room
I'll get a chance to breathe
I'll let the quiet creep inside
And hope it never leaves
Friday, October 17, 2014
Her Shadow
Her shadow follows him
Slipping softly from room to room
Where there are no echoes
To combat the silence
His memories entomb him
Whispering of lost dreams
Tearing at his sanity
With velvet longing
He knows he should move on
But he isn't interested
Her shadow follows him
And he welcomes it
Slipping softly from room to room
Where there are no echoes
To combat the silence
His memories entomb him
Whispering of lost dreams
Tearing at his sanity
With velvet longing
He knows he should move on
But he isn't interested
Her shadow follows him
And he welcomes it
You
How is it possible
that just pressing my leg to yours
can so relax me
Or that running my fingers down
your sleeping back
can completely soothe
my inner turmoil
What is this magic you possess
Where just hearing you sigh
as I run my fingers through your hair
fills my heart with such peace
Perhaps it is you
for you are my home
that just pressing my leg to yours
can so relax me
Or that running my fingers down
your sleeping back
can completely soothe
my inner turmoil
What is this magic you possess
Where just hearing you sigh
as I run my fingers through your hair
fills my heart with such peace
Perhaps it is you
for you are my home
Misunderstood
Is there no place I can feel safe
Where I can be myself
And the people I love will see me
As I really am
My real intent
My real purpose
What have I done
When did I become this person
Whom everyone assumes the worst of
Why can't I disagree
Without being accused of
Ulterior motives
Just when I think I have
Turned a corner
Begin to feel safe
Start to reach out, speak out
I am reminded not to be too sure
Don't say too much
Don't express a differing point of view
Don't make waves
Don't rock the boat
They don't like that
Loneliness in a crowded life
Where I can be myself
And the people I love will see me
As I really am
My real intent
My real purpose
What have I done
When did I become this person
Whom everyone assumes the worst of
Why can't I disagree
Without being accused of
Ulterior motives
Just when I think I have
Turned a corner
Begin to feel safe
Start to reach out, speak out
I am reminded not to be too sure
Don't say too much
Don't express a differing point of view
Don't make waves
Don't rock the boat
They don't like that
Loneliness in a crowded life
Bereft
Carry me away from here
Lead me from this darkest night
For I am bereft
I have lost my way
I cannot recall the light of day
Abandoned by the light
For life has had it's way with me
I feel more damaged than can be born
My spirit is broken
I cannot go on
I need safe harbor from this storm
I need to rest my weary soul
Your love can light my way back home
Lead me from this darkest night
For I am bereft
I have lost my way
I cannot recall the light of day
Abandoned by the light
For life has had it's way with me
I feel more damaged than can be born
My spirit is broken
I cannot go on
I need safe harbor from this storm
I need to rest my weary soul
Your love can light my way back home
Midnight
Memories call softly in the night hours
Poignant pictures of your smile
Dimly, laughter echoes in my ears
Hitching of my breath
Eyes collecting tears
I lay awake and count my breaths
Sleep eludes me once again
Here, alone, I flip through memories
Bringing you to life again
Brightest memories of my friend
Wishing I had one more memory
One more chance to laugh with you
Hear your voice, sweetest timbre
One more smile to see me through
One more day to spend with you
Poignant pictures of your smile
Dimly, laughter echoes in my ears
Hitching of my breath
Eyes collecting tears
I lay awake and count my breaths
Sleep eludes me once again
Here, alone, I flip through memories
Bringing you to life again
Brightest memories of my friend
Wishing I had one more memory
One more chance to laugh with you
Hear your voice, sweetest timbre
One more smile to see me through
One more day to spend with you
Memory Lane
Sitting with you in the afternoon sunshine
talking of things so long in our past
Story for story, we share tales of our history
Sweetest recall of days that have passed
These are the moments that must be discovered
These are the memories we'll hold in our hearts
Afternoons spent in laughter and sharing
Store them as treasures for when we must part
talking of things so long in our past
Story for story, we share tales of our history
Sweetest recall of days that have passed
These are the moments that must be discovered
These are the memories we'll hold in our hearts
Afternoons spent in laughter and sharing
Store them as treasures for when we must part
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Giving
I know there are those who think me fool
naïve and all too trusting
I don't deny they may be right
Yet, when walking on the avenue
I am asked to lend a hand
I find it hard to turn away
I suppose there are those
who take advantage
who don't really need help
But I cant tell the difference
between someone who says
they are hungry
and someone who really is
hungry
I do what I do, for me
not for them
So I can live with myself
naïve and all too trusting
I don't deny they may be right
Yet, when walking on the avenue
I am asked to lend a hand
I find it hard to turn away
I suppose there are those
who take advantage
who don't really need help
But I cant tell the difference
between someone who says
they are hungry
and someone who really is
hungry
I do what I do, for me
not for them
So I can live with myself
Love me
Come to me when the lights are low
When time slows down
and favors lovers
Say you will stay and be my love
For I will have no others
Lay with me now and calm my fears
Our love will last forever
Bring all you are, as I will
our joy is to be together
Welcome me home with sweet embrace
Tell me you're mine and smile
Wrap me in soft contented bliss
Steal breath and sigh with melting kiss
This is what we were made for
When time slows down
and favors lovers
Say you will stay and be my love
For I will have no others
Lay with me now and calm my fears
Our love will last forever
Bring all you are, as I will
our joy is to be together
Welcome me home with sweet embrace
Tell me you're mine and smile
Wrap me in soft contented bliss
Steal breath and sigh with melting kiss
This is what we were made for
Thursday, September 25, 2014
Journey Home
I want to go home
to the place where I was safe
from life's cruel taunts
where I was sure of my place and
how much I belonged
I want to go home
I long to be home
to open a door into a calming space
where love is the norm
and angry words aren't welcome
where I am greeted with smiles
I long to be home
I need to go home
to the place that replenishes
my very soul
to the place that makes me whole
to the people who I know will always
welcome me home
to the place where I was safe
from life's cruel taunts
where I was sure of my place and
how much I belonged
I want to go home
I long to be home
to open a door into a calming space
where love is the norm
and angry words aren't welcome
where I am greeted with smiles
I long to be home
I need to go home
to the place that replenishes
my very soul
to the place that makes me whole
to the people who I know will always
welcome me home
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Essential
She's essential to my life
The insights that she brings to me
The quiet love she sings to me
Are wondrous treasures every one
Her generous ways abound
She's essential to my happiness
The way I feel when I'm with her
Love spending all my time with her
Wrapped in her love I am at home
She is my heart and haven
The insights that she brings to me
The quiet love she sings to me
Are wondrous treasures every one
Her generous ways abound
She's essential to my happiness
The way I feel when I'm with her
Love spending all my time with her
Wrapped in her love I am at home
She is my heart and haven
I am Mighty
Don't underestimate me
Do not think you know me
Through and through
Or that my tears mean
I am fragile
Or weak
They do not
I am not
I care strongly
I love deeply
I have been through
Difficult times
And wondrous adventures
I Am Mighty
I know this to be true
Love will do that for you
Besides
My mom told me
And she never lies
Do not think you know me
Through and through
Or that my tears mean
I am fragile
Or weak
They do not
I am not
I care strongly
I love deeply
I have been through
Difficult times
And wondrous adventures
I Am Mighty
I know this to be true
Love will do that for you
Besides
My mom told me
And she never lies
Monday, September 22, 2014
Like a thief
Like a thief
He comes to steal my sadness
Gently stroking my lashes
Brushing away all my tears
And cares
Like a thief
He comes to steal my heart
And by doing so
He gently steers me
Toward our future
He comes to steal my sadness
Gently stroking my lashes
Brushing away all my tears
And cares
Like a thief
He comes to steal my heart
And by doing so
He gently steers me
Toward our future
Consequences
I'm hiding
Oh, I look the same
I appear to be here
Going on with daily living
as we do every day
but inside of me I am hiding
Hiding my emotions away
Nothing will hurt me today
I'm hiding
the pain that's stealing my breath
So, you'd never guess
the concentration it takes
to put on this show
So no one suspects
How shaken I'm feeling
So no one will know
My senses still reeling
I'm afraid and I'm angry
and feeling ashamed
I'm not more supportive
I know you're in pain
I know you can't stop this
I know it's not you
But the things you are doing
What you're putting us through
It's breaking our hearts
and it's breaking you, too
What were you thinking
Were you thinking at all
These are the questions
that run through my head
When I think how you thought
You'd be better off dead
Put an end to your misery
And ours just begins
If you had succeeded
then none of us wins
I know that I'm selfish
I still want you near
Please try to stay with us
We all want you here
There are consequences
to every act
Please
I don't want to bury you
Oh, I look the same
I appear to be here
Going on with daily living
as we do every day
but inside of me I am hiding
Hiding my emotions away
Nothing will hurt me today
I'm hiding
the pain that's stealing my breath
So, you'd never guess
the concentration it takes
to put on this show
So no one suspects
How shaken I'm feeling
So no one will know
My senses still reeling
I'm afraid and I'm angry
and feeling ashamed
I'm not more supportive
I know you're in pain
I know you can't stop this
I know it's not you
But the things you are doing
What you're putting us through
It's breaking our hearts
and it's breaking you, too
What were you thinking
Were you thinking at all
These are the questions
that run through my head
When I think how you thought
You'd be better off dead
Put an end to your misery
And ours just begins
If you had succeeded
then none of us wins
I know that I'm selfish
I still want you near
Please try to stay with us
We all want you here
There are consequences
to every act
Please
I don't want to bury you
Thursday, September 18, 2014
In Darkness
Waking at midnight
when sleep fades away
Alone with my thoughts
and lost dreams
I turn to my memories
while waiting for day
I'm coming apart at the seams
It's in this dark quiet
my thoughts turn to you
And at times it's a sweet reminisce
More often than not
it becomes bittersweet
Thinking of all I have missed
The things I never did tell you
Forever live on in my heart
I grieve for the loss of our friendship
For the children you never had
I long for more time with my sister
For all I am left now is sad
when sleep fades away
Alone with my thoughts
and lost dreams
I turn to my memories
while waiting for day
I'm coming apart at the seams
It's in this dark quiet
my thoughts turn to you
And at times it's a sweet reminisce
More often than not
it becomes bittersweet
Thinking of all I have missed
The things I never did tell you
Forever live on in my heart
I grieve for the loss of our friendship
For the children you never had
I long for more time with my sister
For all I am left now is sad
Big Brother
Did I ever tell you
How important you made me feel
When you would stick up for me
to the neighborhood kids
And let me hang around with you
Did you ever know
How grown up I thought you were
At fifteen
When you chose to stay
When we had to go
Did I ever tell you
How cool I thought you were
When we danced at your friends
wedding
When I was just 13
And you made me feel pretty
Did I ever tell you
How moved I was
when you danced with me again
years later at a different wedding
And said you missed me
I should have
I should have told you
All along
That you were the source
of monumental moments
in my life
How important you made me feel
When you would stick up for me
to the neighborhood kids
And let me hang around with you
Did you ever know
How grown up I thought you were
At fifteen
When you chose to stay
When we had to go
Did I ever tell you
How cool I thought you were
When we danced at your friends
wedding
When I was just 13
And you made me feel pretty
Did I ever tell you
How moved I was
when you danced with me again
years later at a different wedding
And said you missed me
I should have
I should have told you
All along
That you were the source
of monumental moments
in my life
Solitary Man
He's a solitary man
Surrounded by loved ones and laughter
By friends who adore him and more
By people who like and respect him
Unable to trust in his own worth
He's frightened right down to his core
He knows that his secrets are many
And feels he has done far too wrong
He thinks if they knew of his failings
They all would soon head out the door
He's frightened right down to his core
He can't see we all are frightened
That we all hold secrets within
Our failings and flaws don't unmake us
And loving of others can't break us
We understand he isn't perfect
Except that he is, don't you see
As perfectly imperfect as all are
He truly is perfect to me
I am taking this chance now to tell him
I love him because of his flaws
He is who he is, as he should be
Imperfect and perfect and more
I care not a bit for his secrets
I'll never head out of that door
I love him right down to his core
Surrounded by loved ones and laughter
By friends who adore him and more
By people who like and respect him
Unable to trust in his own worth
He's frightened right down to his core
He knows that his secrets are many
And feels he has done far too wrong
He thinks if they knew of his failings
They all would soon head out the door
He's frightened right down to his core
He can't see we all are frightened
That we all hold secrets within
Our failings and flaws don't unmake us
And loving of others can't break us
We understand he isn't perfect
Except that he is, don't you see
As perfectly imperfect as all are
He truly is perfect to me
I am taking this chance now to tell him
I love him because of his flaws
He is who he is, as he should be
Imperfect and perfect and more
I care not a bit for his secrets
I'll never head out of that door
I love him right down to his core
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Lost Child
I watch her
Without her notice
So fragile is her smile
She walks along the streets alone
Creating a delicate buffer zone
So none can penetrate her space
So all who pass leave her alone
I long to somehow reconnect
The severed bond that once was ours
But now is not the proper place
She cannot yield her hard fought space
I must respect her right to choose
Or chance she'll go, without a trace
Oh, how I love my wayward child
Who walks away as I remain
I wish that I could take her pain
Help her to find her heart's desire
In hopes she'll come back home again
Without her notice
So fragile is her smile
She walks along the streets alone
Creating a delicate buffer zone
So none can penetrate her space
So all who pass leave her alone
I long to somehow reconnect
The severed bond that once was ours
But now is not the proper place
She cannot yield her hard fought space
I must respect her right to choose
Or chance she'll go, without a trace
Oh, how I love my wayward child
Who walks away as I remain
I wish that I could take her pain
Help her to find her heart's desire
In hopes she'll come back home again
Insomnia
Sleep eludes me
Thoughts keep churning
Mind keeps whirling
As world keeps turning
a dizzying cycle
Without purpose
Exhausted
Thoughts keep churning
Mind keeps whirling
As world keeps turning
a dizzying cycle
Without purpose
Exhausted
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Life
you just can't know how tired I am
my eyes hurt-scratchy, achy
my limbs feel heavy and numb
it feels kinda hard to breathe
No, I'm not depressed
Depressed about what?
I'm just tired
Tired
Don't you get it?
I have a lot on my mind
Too much to do
I can't get it all done
Why would you even say that
I'm not being dramatic
I'm not complaining
or making things up
I like my life
I don't mind helping out
I'm just tired
I'm just tired
that's all.
Just so damned tired
my eyes hurt-scratchy, achy
my limbs feel heavy and numb
it feels kinda hard to breathe
No, I'm not depressed
Depressed about what?
I'm just tired
Tired
Don't you get it?
I have a lot on my mind
Too much to do
I can't get it all done
Why would you even say that
I'm not being dramatic
I'm not complaining
or making things up
I like my life
I don't mind helping out
I'm just tired
I'm just tired
that's all.
Just so damned tired
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Worthless
Don't be so careless, I said
This could be important
Don't be so callous
I cried
Not everyone lives for the moment
Don't be so foolish, he said
Nothing really has value
Don't be so fragile, he smiled
It must be hard to be you
Don't be so heartless, I said
I used to feel important
Don't leave me broken
I cried
I loved you until this moment
Don't be so dramatic, he said
Your love really has no value
Don't look surprised, he smiled
I have no more use for you
Where did I go wrong
I know it was all my fault
How can I make him love me again
When I have no value
This could be important
Don't be so callous
I cried
Not everyone lives for the moment
Don't be so foolish, he said
Nothing really has value
Don't be so fragile, he smiled
It must be hard to be you
Don't be so heartless, I said
I used to feel important
Don't leave me broken
I cried
I loved you until this moment
Don't be so dramatic, he said
Your love really has no value
Don't look surprised, he smiled
I have no more use for you
Where did I go wrong
I know it was all my fault
How can I make him love me again
When I have no value
Edge of Sanity
I find at times I'm questioning my sanity
feel the world around me growing thin
my concentration's going, at least that's how
it seems
Unsure of what's reality and what are dreams
This state of pure confusion that I'm in
My memories seem current and today's a dream
I'm losing touch, can't keep it all in line
It's frightening, this struggle to win the race
I need a chance to reconnect this time and place
I'm fairly sure I'm running out of time
If one day I forever lose my fight to stay
in the world where all my loved ones dwell
Will I even notice the different road I'm on
Will my loved ones stare and wonder where I have gone
Slipped forever, into my private hell
feel the world around me growing thin
my concentration's going, at least that's how
it seems
Unsure of what's reality and what are dreams
This state of pure confusion that I'm in
My memories seem current and today's a dream
I'm losing touch, can't keep it all in line
It's frightening, this struggle to win the race
I need a chance to reconnect this time and place
I'm fairly sure I'm running out of time
If one day I forever lose my fight to stay
in the world where all my loved ones dwell
Will I even notice the different road I'm on
Will my loved ones stare and wonder where I have gone
Slipped forever, into my private hell
Saturday, September 13, 2014
My Second Chance
You seldom get the chance to try anew
A second chance to capture love so true
There was a time when life was mine to taste
I spent my love on choices made in haste
Second chances should not go to waste
Mired down by hopelessness and dreams undone
The second chance has slipped right through my hands
So full of empty longing I can only stand
And watch as old mistakes wreak future plans
Despair is mine that now I understand
The blame is mine alone, I took a chance
I thought I was much smarter at this game
Yet in the end I stand here on my own
Left to live this life of mine alone
Still longing for a love I've never known
A second chance to capture love so true
There was a time when life was mine to taste
I spent my love on choices made in haste
Second chances should not go to waste
Mired down by hopelessness and dreams undone
The second chance has slipped right through my hands
So full of empty longing I can only stand
And watch as old mistakes wreak future plans
Despair is mine that now I understand
The blame is mine alone, I took a chance
I thought I was much smarter at this game
Yet in the end I stand here on my own
Left to live this life of mine alone
Still longing for a love I've never known
Autumn
Autumn mornings glistening
with dew and frost
Wisps of fog are lifting with the dawn
Trees are wearing season's
gaudy colored leaves
Brilliant hues are dressed on every one
Autumn's varied jewels
tantalize the eye
Crimson and burnt orange touching azure blue
Emerald green carpet
splashed with golden sun
Nature dressed in jewels for our view
with dew and frost
Wisps of fog are lifting with the dawn
Trees are wearing season's
gaudy colored leaves
Brilliant hues are dressed on every one
Autumn's varied jewels
tantalize the eye
Crimson and burnt orange touching azure blue
Emerald green carpet
splashed with golden sun
Nature dressed in jewels for our view
Moments with you
Waking to the sound of rain upon the glass
Snuggled deep inside my warm cocoon
Drifting in that haze between dream and wake
Cuddled snug with you in our chilled room
I'm storing up these moments of you and I
The gentle way you hold me as I sleep
For I know it won't be long now til you're gone away
And I'll treasure every memory as I weep
Snuggled deep inside my warm cocoon
Drifting in that haze between dream and wake
Cuddled snug with you in our chilled room
I'm storing up these moments of you and I
The gentle way you hold me as I sleep
For I know it won't be long now til you're gone away
And I'll treasure every memory as I weep
Star crossed loves
The love that they are sharing is forbidden fruit
Neither family nor friends will understand
No common ground between them where
their love took root
Different worlds colliding, future
in their hands
Caring not for consequences her rash actions bring
She thinks only of a chance to have him near
Taking far too many chances for the one
she loves
Waiting for the moment that he will
appear
Not the first of star crossed lovers to risk it all
They're determined that their love will see
them through
Holding fast to one another they turn from
their past
Safe within their love they start their lives anew
Neither family nor friends will understand
No common ground between them where
their love took root
Different worlds colliding, future
in their hands
Caring not for consequences her rash actions bring
She thinks only of a chance to have him near
Taking far too many chances for the one
she loves
Waiting for the moment that he will
appear
Not the first of star crossed lovers to risk it all
They're determined that their love will see
them through
Holding fast to one another they turn from
their past
Safe within their love they start their lives anew
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Regret
There is nothing more to say
Baffled by the choices that he made
Wishing time was hers to turn back
She stands mutely watching
as it all slips away
She can't remember when it
still made sense
A time when bitter tears
weren't hers to shed
She's longing for a chance
to make it right
She doesn't want to live
this life of dread
So quietly she turns and
walks away
Pretending that the cost is
not too great
Blindly makes her way
back to her room
Nothing left to do
It's all too late
Baffled by the choices that he made
Wishing time was hers to turn back
She stands mutely watching
as it all slips away
She can't remember when it
still made sense
A time when bitter tears
weren't hers to shed
She's longing for a chance
to make it right
She doesn't want to live
this life of dread
So quietly she turns and
walks away
Pretending that the cost is
not too great
Blindly makes her way
back to her room
Nothing left to do
It's all too late
Idyll
He lightly strokes her hair upon the pillow
Enraptured by her hand beneath her cheek
He longs to bring her close and hold her gently
Loves her so completely he feels weak
He wants these moments etched upon his memory
To close his eyes and still recall her smile
The feather of her lashes on his shoulder
These memories must last for a long while
He knows he would do anything to stay here
For everything he has is hers to keep
He longs to hear her voice upon her waking
But for now he is content to watch her sleep
Enraptured by her hand beneath her cheek
He longs to bring her close and hold her gently
Loves her so completely he feels weak
He wants these moments etched upon his memory
To close his eyes and still recall her smile
The feather of her lashes on his shoulder
These memories must last for a long while
He knows he would do anything to stay here
For everything he has is hers to keep
He longs to hear her voice upon her waking
But for now he is content to watch her sleep
Monday, September 8, 2014
Songs Not Sung
Looking back on all my memories
Flipping through catalogs of plans
And untold dreams
Peering down avenues of journeys
Never taken
Measuring each choice I made
Flipping through catalogs of plans
And untold dreams
Peering down avenues of journeys
Never taken
Measuring each choice I made
Against unchosen scenes
Curious of the life I would have led
If I had made my choices slower still
If, instead of rushing headlong down
This path I'm on
I'd thought more about the journey
And less of destination
Taken time to embrace each situation
And the many joys
Curious of the life I would have led
If I had made my choices slower still
If, instead of rushing headlong down
This path I'm on
I'd thought more about the journey
And less of destination
Taken time to embrace each situation
And the many joys
Each one brought along
I don't know if others look back as I do
Wondering what adventures those other
Paths could bring
It's not that I'm unhappy with
The life I'm living now
It's the pondering of the life
I didn't lead
It's humming to the songs
I didn't sing
I don't know if others look back as I do
Wondering what adventures those other
Paths could bring
It's not that I'm unhappy with
The life I'm living now
It's the pondering of the life
I didn't lead
It's humming to the songs
I didn't sing
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Rumble
Listen to the far off thunder
Storm is brewing, coming near
Watching clouds with sense of wonder
Gathering storm is almost here
What magic this, the storm surrounds me
Mesmerized by rain and wind
Feel my pulse speed up inside me
Let the summer rain begin
Storm is brewing, coming near
Watching clouds with sense of wonder
Gathering storm is almost here
What magic this, the storm surrounds me
Mesmerized by rain and wind
Feel my pulse speed up inside me
Let the summer rain begin
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Sleep Over
Tiny hands wriggle into mine
So small and smooth and incredibly
warm
The sweetness of their kisses
Makes my heart sing
This bountiful life of mine
Smoothing sweat damp hair back
as they sleep
The twitching of small fingers
gently held in mine
These are moments for my heart
to keep
These my finest treasures, out of time
So small and smooth and incredibly
warm
The sweetness of their kisses
Makes my heart sing
This bountiful life of mine
Smoothing sweat damp hair back
as they sleep
The twitching of small fingers
gently held in mine
These are moments for my heart
to keep
These my finest treasures, out of time
Monday, September 1, 2014
Weary Soul
Take these troubles from my hands
No more make these sorrows mine
Take me to a distant shore
All my cares left far behind
Troubles carried there no more
Lay me down and rest my mind
Battered spirit begs surcease
Is there no safe haven found
for a soul to find some peace
Can a life find some release
Bring to me some hopeful word
That I might see sorrows end
Help me find some respite here
Show me life is still a friend
Glimpse of peace at life's sad end
With such tidings I can rest
Banish hope from life's sad shore
Here will be my journey's fate
Love will find me there no more
Hope extinguished, dream no more
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Give to Me
Give me a day
Where the wind blows my hair around
My ears are filled with nature's sound
I turn my face up to the sky
And bask in nature's lullaby
Give me a night
Where gentle rains bathe my skin
Ease the pains I hold within
Patter lulls me off to sleep
Calming patter mine to keep
Give to me a life my own
Filled with love and friends so true
Every day brings joys anew
Each new day a complex poem
Life and laughter take me home
Where the wind blows my hair around
My ears are filled with nature's sound
I turn my face up to the sky
And bask in nature's lullaby
Give me a night
Where gentle rains bathe my skin
Ease the pains I hold within
Patter lulls me off to sleep
Calming patter mine to keep
Give to me a life my own
Filled with love and friends so true
Every day brings joys anew
Each new day a complex poem
Life and laughter take me home
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Nature's Melody
A lark is singing in the distance
The trees are swaying in the breeze
The gentle movement takes me with it
Nature's music fills the air
And my heart fills with rejoicing
Melody beyond compare
A lovely lonely song it's singing
Accompanied by an errant breeze
I gently sway to nature's love song
As green cicadas play along
The leaves they rustle out their song
I feel my cares and worries ease
The trees are swaying in the breeze
The gentle movement takes me with it
Nature's music fills the air
And my heart fills with rejoicing
Melody beyond compare
A lovely lonely song it's singing
Accompanied by an errant breeze
I gently sway to nature's love song
As green cicadas play along
The leaves they rustle out their song
I feel my cares and worries ease
Common Courtesy is Dead
Are you kidding me
To be sitting on a lovely hillside
Enjoying wine and quiet breeze
And here come three obnoxious asshats
Talking loud and braying laughter
Ruining the peace I'm after
I do not think they even see me
So caught up in their own fun
Oblivious of those around them
Self centered is their way of life
Carelessly causing others strife
I am sick of these self loving morons
Those who care not what they do
Encroaching on the space of others
Blindly making their way through
Caring not a bit for you
Would that I could strike them down now
Silence them with clever word
Would that they could see as I see
Their loud boisterousness absurd
Shut them up with just one word
Message to my Child
My darling child
Now grown
You make my heart sing
You are a joy
Every bit of joy you find
You have earned
And I hope you gather it
all to you
Breathe it in
Live it
Experience it
Own it
Well done, I say
Well done
Now grown
You make my heart sing
You are a joy
Every bit of joy you find
You have earned
And I hope you gather it
all to you
Breathe it in
Live it
Experience it
Own it
Well done, I say
Well done
Ode to Wine
Bring wine!
Sweet spirit
Magically made
From fruits of vine or tree
It matters not
Which one you bring
Ambrosia all to me
To raise a glass
To friend or foe
Each one with its own reason
There is a vintage
To be had
Fit for every season
And, So!
A Toast!
To vintners all
Both living or now dead
My life is richer
For your work
A blessing on your head
From fruits of vine or tree
It matters not
Which one you bring
Ambrosia all to me
To raise a glass
To friend or foe
Each one with its own reason
There is a vintage
To be had
Fit for every season
And, So!
A Toast!
To vintners all
Both living or now dead
My life is richer
For your work
A blessing on your head
Down Time
I am taking a time out today
Away from all who know me
Need some time out on my own
Don't confuse alone with lonely
Crowded room or empty road
For today they are the same
There's a quietness regardless
When no one knows your name
Today I'm an observer
Disconnection sets me free
Recharging of my spirit
To enjoy just being me
Away from all who know me
Need some time out on my own
Don't confuse alone with lonely
Crowded room or empty road
For today they are the same
There's a quietness regardless
When no one knows your name
Today I'm an observer
Disconnection sets me free
Recharging of my spirit
To enjoy just being me
Burdens of Love
Her spirit's almost broken
By the daily miseries
Life's endless disappointments
have brought her to her knees
She looks around bewildered
where are all her lovely dreams
She doesn't show her panic
Head filled with silent screams
Each day she keeps appointments
Every day she looks the same
Carries burdens that are not hers
Taking on her loved ones pains
And her family is blinded
by the falseness of her smile
They don't know her spirit's broken
And it has been for awhile
Look around you at your loved ones
Open eyes and see their strife
Ask yourself this as you ponder
Would you want theirs as your life
By the daily miseries
Life's endless disappointments
have brought her to her knees
She looks around bewildered
where are all her lovely dreams
She doesn't show her panic
Head filled with silent screams
Each day she keeps appointments
Every day she looks the same
Carries burdens that are not hers
Taking on her loved ones pains
And her family is blinded
by the falseness of her smile
They don't know her spirit's broken
And it has been for awhile
Look around you at your loved ones
Open eyes and see their strife
Ask yourself this as you ponder
Would you want theirs as your life
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Meditation
When life starts closing off my air
So breathing feels it comes in gasps
I close my eyes and then recall
A photo seen on forgotten wall
Of sky and trees and grass
A lovely path of whitewashed stones
Leads through the grass
Towards distant trees
So lush the flowers all around
The richness of the damp dark ground
Seem answers to my harried pleas
Would that I could travel there
To walk the clean and lovely stones
Smell the flowers, grass and earth
Take the time to breathe the air
Time my own to be alone
So breathing feels it comes in gasps
I close my eyes and then recall
A photo seen on forgotten wall
Of sky and trees and grass
A lovely path of whitewashed stones
Leads through the grass
Towards distant trees
So lush the flowers all around
The richness of the damp dark ground
Seem answers to my harried pleas
Would that I could travel there
To walk the clean and lovely stones
Smell the flowers, grass and earth
Take the time to breathe the air
Time my own to be alone
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Quiet Treasures
I walk this road most every day
Collecting soothing sounds
In memories held silently
Within a daydream's sleepy haze
My treasures held in silent praise
My quiet life's soliloquy
The cherished times within my life
whether shared or kept inside
The quiet moments spent alone
Listening to life's sweet song
Poetry etched on my heart
So sweet, at times I've cried
Today you came to me and shared
your quiet moments spent alone
You wanted me to hear the sounds
that you collect when on your own
and tell me how they fill your soul
My love now knows no bounds
Collecting soothing sounds
In memories held silently
Within a daydream's sleepy haze
My treasures held in silent praise
My quiet life's soliloquy
The cherished times within my life
whether shared or kept inside
The quiet moments spent alone
Listening to life's sweet song
Poetry etched on my heart
So sweet, at times I've cried
Today you came to me and shared
your quiet moments spent alone
You wanted me to hear the sounds
that you collect when on your own
and tell me how they fill your soul
My love now knows no bounds
Theft
Stolen glances
Stolen years
Stolen love and
Stolen tears
Stolen hopes leave
Pain and strife
Stolen dreams
Stolen life
Stolen years
Stolen love and
Stolen tears
Stolen hopes leave
Pain and strife
Stolen dreams
Stolen life
Monday, August 25, 2014
Slow song
Simply, slowly, gently sway
Music drifts on humid breeze
Serenades the end of day
Washing all my cares away
Weaving through the silent trees
Mesmerizing melodies
Barely heard the lilting strains
Hold my breath, close my eyes
Fleeting memories my hearts prize
Bring to life loves last refrain
Music drifts on humid breeze
Serenades the end of day
Washing all my cares away
Weaving through the silent trees
Mesmerizing melodies
Barely heard the lilting strains
Hold my breath, close my eyes
Fleeting memories my hearts prize
Bring to life loves last refrain
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Life sentences
Sometimes
I see my life in flashes
statements made at
pivotal points
creating wrenching
changes
She doesn't love you
and she's never coming back
age 11
Don't open the door
if he knocks
it's not his house anymore
age 11
Flashes
I don't know how to
tell you this
Devera's dead
age 20
Mother
Father
Sister
We all change
I changed
What I recall
are sentences
Life sentences
I see my life in flashes
statements made at
pivotal points
creating wrenching
changes
She doesn't love you
and she's never coming back
age 11
Don't open the door
if he knocks
it's not his house anymore
age 11
Flashes
I don't know how to
tell you this
Devera's dead
age 20
Mother
Father
Sister
We all change
I changed
What I recall
are sentences
Life sentences
Poetry
When I try to write poetry that is
Insightful
It comes out
Stilted
Forced
Jagged
Frustrated
I am no philosopher
I don't know
Or have answers
When I write poetry from my feelings
Memories
Joys
Sorrows
It rushes onto the paper
As if it writes itself
Flowing
Hurried
Easy
Healing
I hope to never run out
Of poetry
Insightful
It comes out
Stilted
Forced
Jagged
Frustrated
I am no philosopher
I don't know
Or have answers
When I write poetry from my feelings
Memories
Joys
Sorrows
It rushes onto the paper
As if it writes itself
Flowing
Hurried
Easy
Healing
I hope to never run out
Of poetry
Panic
I'm beginning to panic when we talk
All our words seem to hold such meaning
As if we both can feel our time together
Winding down
Running short
Running out
Whatever we talk about
The everyday stuff that seems to
make you smile
It's there, underneath
Intensely unspoken
I love you
Don't leave me
You love me
I'm not ready
How can I be ready
Just the thought of you
beyond my reach
Begins to choke me
With fear
With longing
and despair
No
Not yet
I'm just finally getting to tell you
about me
What you've meant to me
I want to hold you
To tell you how lucky
You make me feel
It's so stupid
That I am here
Working, living, aching
While you are there
Living, laughing, dying
I don't know how to do this
I still have so much I want to tell you
Stories to make you laugh
I need to hear your laughter
I want more time
I want more you
All our words seem to hold such meaning
As if we both can feel our time together
Winding down
Running short
Running out
Whatever we talk about
The everyday stuff that seems to
make you smile
It's there, underneath
Intensely unspoken
I love you
Don't leave me
You love me
I'm not ready
How can I be ready
Just the thought of you
beyond my reach
Begins to choke me
With fear
With longing
and despair
No
Not yet
I'm just finally getting to tell you
about me
What you've meant to me
I want to hold you
To tell you how lucky
You make me feel
It's so stupid
That I am here
Working, living, aching
While you are there
Living, laughing, dying
I don't know how to do this
I still have so much I want to tell you
Stories to make you laugh
I need to hear your laughter
I want more time
I want more you
You and I
You
Who held me as a child
Who loved me for myself
Who gave without regret
Are irreplaceable
I
Who always needed help
Who wanted to be free
Who acted self assured
Am inconsolable
You
Who taught me how to laugh
Who sang the lullabies
Who kissed away my tears
Are unforgettable
I
Will love you all my life
Will cherish all our days
Will carry on this life
Will miss you all my years
Who held me as a child
Who loved me for myself
Who gave without regret
Are irreplaceable
I
Who always needed help
Who wanted to be free
Who acted self assured
Am inconsolable
You
Who taught me how to laugh
Who sang the lullabies
Who kissed away my tears
Are unforgettable
I
Will love you all my life
Will cherish all our days
Will carry on this life
Will miss you all my years
Abandon
Love me now with sweet abandon
Throw all caution to the wind
Take my hand and leave me never
Life will be our own to treasure
We shall life a life filled full
Run with me through life's adventure
Let our unknown tale begin
Side by side we'll live together
Love will give its sweetest pleasure
Life of love is ever full
Throw all caution to the wind
Take my hand and leave me never
Life will be our own to treasure
We shall life a life filled full
Run with me through life's adventure
Let our unknown tale begin
Side by side we'll live together
Love will give its sweetest pleasure
Life of love is ever full
Saturday, August 23, 2014
When Last I Saw you
When last I saw you
You were sitting in the sunshine
Laughing at something
You just said
Or was it something I said
I remember laughter
You were full of ideas
And your smile was making your eyes
You were sitting in the sunshine
Laughing at something
You just said
Or was it something I said
I remember laughter
You were full of ideas
And your smile was making your eyes
Sparkle
You were making plans to go out
Next Saturday
Forever will I hold in my heart
In my fondest memories
The look of your face
As laughter crinkled your eyes
When last I saw you
You were making plans to go out
Next Saturday
Forever will I hold in my heart
In my fondest memories
The look of your face
As laughter crinkled your eyes
When last I saw you
Disco's not Dead
I want to rant and ramble
Flail my arms and stomp my feet
I want to have a tantrum
To a disco beat
To rant is not uncommon
And rambling on's not rough
You see it fairly often
I say enough's enough
I want an epic tantrum
One that could last for days
But much more entertaining
When done to disco craze
So if you should be passing
An applauding, cheering crowd
I will be at the center
Disco tantrum, alive and proud
Flail my arms and stomp my feet
I want to have a tantrum
To a disco beat
To rant is not uncommon
And rambling on's not rough
You see it fairly often
I say enough's enough
I want an epic tantrum
One that could last for days
But much more entertaining
When done to disco craze
So if you should be passing
An applauding, cheering crowd
I will be at the center
Disco tantrum, alive and proud
Friday, August 22, 2014
Comfortable
There's something to be said
for comfortable
Oh, I know
many feel it is a bad thing
comfortable
Boring, stale
average even
Not I
I see couples
strolling
arm in arm
years of connection
comfortable
I see their love
accepting
honest
soft as a whisper
gentle as a rain
A lifetime
spent loving
the same individual
Like a favorite pair
of comfortable
shoes
One is nothing
without the other
for comfortable
Oh, I know
many feel it is a bad thing
comfortable
Boring, stale
average even
Not I
I see couples
strolling
arm in arm
years of connection
comfortable
I see their love
accepting
honest
soft as a whisper
gentle as a rain
A lifetime
spent loving
the same individual
Like a favorite pair
of comfortable
shoes
One is nothing
without the other
Restless Sleep
This poem was inspired by a creepy picture of a pig smiling with human teeth that Rusty Rhymes posted.
I had the strangest dream last night
A dream you won't believe
It woke me in the strangest way
The subject ill conceived
I can't think why I dreamt this dream
Was it something that I ate
I did have some leftover fish
And I did eat rather late
But that is neither here nor there
I'm wandering off course
This dream it started fairly sane
I was riding a pink horse
Now that could seem quite odd to some
But, again, it's not that strange
Except to say there was a yacht
Out on the open range
I don't recall the entire dream
You know how dreams can be
The part I clearly do recall
Was a pig up in a tree
Now, after all the other stuff
I have mentioned came before
This may seem not so curious
As yacht or a pink horse
But, here it is, the very thing
That pulled me from my sleep
That pig was smiling a creepy smile
And holding a dead sheep
I had the strangest dream last night
A dream you won't believe
It woke me in the strangest way
The subject ill conceived
I can't think why I dreamt this dream
Was it something that I ate
I did have some leftover fish
And I did eat rather late
But that is neither here nor there
I'm wandering off course
This dream it started fairly sane
I was riding a pink horse
Now that could seem quite odd to some
But, again, it's not that strange
Except to say there was a yacht
Out on the open range
I don't recall the entire dream
You know how dreams can be
The part I clearly do recall
Was a pig up in a tree
Now, after all the other stuff
I have mentioned came before
This may seem not so curious
As yacht or a pink horse
But, here it is, the very thing
That pulled me from my sleep
That pig was smiling a creepy smile
And holding a dead sheep
We Two
We stroll
Years of life
lifetime of love
Memories shared
Experiences embraced
Arm in arm
Through life's storms
Through days long
And nights longer
Burdens shared
Forever safe
Love our shield
Life our playground
Never afraid
Never alone
Love uplifted
Pains endured
Endless comfort
Joy is ours
Arm in arm
Years of life
lifetime of love
Memories shared
Experiences embraced
Arm in arm
Through life's storms
Through days long
And nights longer
Burdens shared
Forever safe
Love our shield
Life our playground
Never afraid
Never alone
Love uplifted
Pains endured
Endless comfort
Joy is ours
Arm in arm
Monday, August 18, 2014
Each and Every
Each and every single day
You take the time to make me feel
Important to you
Necessary to your happiness
What a lovely thing to do
Each and every single day
I am thankful for your love
I know how lucky I am
to have you by my side
What a lovely way to feel
Each and every single day
For the rest of my life
I intend to make you feel
Important, necessary and loved
What a lovely way to live
You take the time to make me feel
Important to you
Necessary to your happiness
What a lovely thing to do
Each and every single day
I am thankful for your love
I know how lucky I am
to have you by my side
What a lovely way to feel
Each and every single day
For the rest of my life
I intend to make you feel
Important, necessary and loved
What a lovely way to live
Dreamless Slumber
Turn the darkness into slumber
That my weary mind shall rest
Wrestle no more painful memories
Bring a kinder rest to me
Endless churning dims my senses
Shadows thrown upon my soul
Turmoil twists my tortured waking
Leaves sorrow where there once was joy
Withering hope
Bring to me a dreamless slumber
Failures and sorrow haunt no more
Take me where soothing quiet heals
wounded minds and wearied souls
Slumber, where my hopes may flourish
leaving sorrow all behind
That perchance I'll meet the morrow
with a calm and hopeful mind
That my weary mind shall rest
Wrestle no more painful memories
Bring a kinder rest to me
Endless churning dims my senses
Shadows thrown upon my soul
Turmoil twists my tortured waking
Leaves sorrow where there once was joy
Withering hope
Bring to me a dreamless slumber
Failures and sorrow haunt no more
Take me where soothing quiet heals
wounded minds and wearied souls
Slumber, where my hopes may flourish
leaving sorrow all behind
That perchance I'll meet the morrow
with a calm and hopeful mind
Sunday, August 17, 2014
One Way Ticket
Sidewalks line the narrow lane
Yet I spurn them
To walk down the middle
Concrete walls decorated
Yet I spurn them
To walk down the middle
Concrete walls decorated
With glass and wood
Loom on both sides
Seeming to lean in
To get a better look at me
Still, without pause
I stick to the middle of the road
For me it's always
The middle of the road
Destination unknown
It's a one way life
There's no going back
Loom on both sides
Seeming to lean in
To get a better look at me
Still, without pause
I stick to the middle of the road
For me it's always
The middle of the road
Destination unknown
It's a one way life
There's no going back
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Book of Life
I am the author of my life
Each day and page is mine to own
Not knowing what is coming next
For future pages blank remain
Until I reach that place and time
And life fills in the missing text
Each page contains my random day
With paths and patterns yet undrawn
I'll relish what life sends my way
The little things that are life's treasures
Chance encounters make up life's pleasures
Fill the page and fill the days
And as my book draws to its end
I'll know I savored every chapter
Each glad moment it contained
Each deep sorrow written there
Are treasures that made up my tale
This my story forever after
Each day and page is mine to own
Not knowing what is coming next
For future pages blank remain
Until I reach that place and time
And life fills in the missing text
Each page contains my random day
With paths and patterns yet undrawn
I'll relish what life sends my way
The little things that are life's treasures
Chance encounters make up life's pleasures
Fill the page and fill the days
And as my book draws to its end
I'll know I savored every chapter
Each glad moment it contained
Each deep sorrow written there
Are treasures that made up my tale
This my story forever after
Friday, August 15, 2014
The Hunt
Rubbing sleep from tired eyes
Waiting for the coming dawn
Hoping for majestic prize
passing on the doe and fawn
Silently he waits alone
As the morning sun appears
Waiting for his prey to come
Barely breathing as it nears
The drab hunter's final kiss
Bullet piercing flesh to bone
What strange sort of gaming this
That thrill sends the bullet home
Waiting for the coming dawn
Hoping for majestic prize
passing on the doe and fawn
Silently he waits alone
As the morning sun appears
Waiting for his prey to come
Barely breathing as it nears
The drab hunter's final kiss
Bullet piercing flesh to bone
What strange sort of gaming this
That thrill sends the bullet home
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Unsung Hero
This was no cowardly deed
This was all you had left to you
After fighting so valiantly
for so long
knowing there would always
be another battle
in a war that had no end
Not for you, never for you
How tired you must have been
beating back the darkness
time and again
Knowing that any respite
might be brief
How hopeless it must have been
where you were
Yet you fought on
Not for yourself
did you fight
but for those you loved
You were your own
fisher king
mighty knight, brave
and valiant
I am forever grateful
you fought so long
I am forever humbled
by your strength and
gentle spirit
I am forever changed
because of you
This was all you had left to you
After fighting so valiantly
for so long
knowing there would always
be another battle
in a war that had no end
Not for you, never for you
How tired you must have been
beating back the darkness
time and again
Knowing that any respite
might be brief
How hopeless it must have been
where you were
Yet you fought on
Not for yourself
did you fight
but for those you loved
You were your own
fisher king
mighty knight, brave
and valiant
I am forever grateful
you fought so long
I am forever humbled
by your strength and
gentle spirit
I am forever changed
because of you
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Loss
It's there
Hovering at the edge of my vision
like a will o the wisp
you can almost feel
A memory out of time
Why is today different
I stretch, enjoying the quiet of
the morning
Yet
Uneasy
As if I've forgotten something
terribly important
It's right there
Oh no
The memory awakens
Oh no, that's not right
That's not true
That didn't really happen
You aren't really gone
No
Please
Make it not be true
Hovering at the edge of my vision
like a will o the wisp
you can almost feel
A memory out of time
Why is today different
I stretch, enjoying the quiet of
the morning
Yet
Uneasy
As if I've forgotten something
terribly important
It's right there
Oh no
The memory awakens
Oh no, that's not right
That's not true
That didn't really happen
You aren't really gone
No
Please
Make it not be true
Promises
You're with me on the summer breeze
Gently lifting my hair
Caressing my cheek
As gentle as a breath
You're with me in the early hours
When the day is only half awake
And smells of mist
And damp earth
You're with me in the quiet raindrops
As they plaster my hair
To my head, to mingle
With my tears
You're with me each and every moment
The quiet moments between breaths
And will be
All my years
Gently lifting my hair
Caressing my cheek
As gentle as a breath
You're with me in the early hours
When the day is only half awake
And smells of mist
And damp earth
You're with me in the quiet raindrops
As they plaster my hair
To my head, to mingle
With my tears
You're with me each and every moment
The quiet moments between breaths
And will be
All my years
Monday, August 11, 2014
RW
I just heard
for an instant, the world stopped
and I forgot to breathe
I now know
crushing loss
I'm unsure
which breaks my heart more
that you are now gone
Or knowing
you wanted, needed to go
It makes no
difference really
just different ways to combat
the pain
the blinding pain
In the end
all that matters
is that you are gone
and life
is darker now
for an instant, the world stopped
and I forgot to breathe
I now know
crushing loss
I'm unsure
which breaks my heart more
that you are now gone
Or knowing
you wanted, needed to go
It makes no
difference really
just different ways to combat
the pain
the blinding pain
In the end
all that matters
is that you are gone
and life
is darker now
Sunday, August 10, 2014
All the Best
There is so much I want to say
That I might make you understand
The lovely things that come your way
The happy moments yet unplanned
Are all my wishes just for you
That happy times and dreams come true
Be all at your command
May life's music fill your days
Its gentle tune console you
The pulse of life, the hum of time
Its melody in lasting chimes
Caress your soul and soothe your mind
Its joyful sound enthrall you
And last of all my dearest friend
My greatest wish to summon
Is throughout all your glory days
Through friends that go and love that stays
Through winter storm and summer haze
You live a life uncommon
That I might make you understand
The lovely things that come your way
The happy moments yet unplanned
Are all my wishes just for you
That happy times and dreams come true
Be all at your command
May life's music fill your days
Its gentle tune console you
The pulse of life, the hum of time
Its melody in lasting chimes
Caress your soul and soothe your mind
Its joyful sound enthrall you
And last of all my dearest friend
My greatest wish to summon
Is throughout all your glory days
Through friends that go and love that stays
Through winter storm and summer haze
You live a life uncommon
Saturday, August 9, 2014
First Step
There was a quiet to the dawn
Almost a hushed reverence
As if the night were holding its breath
Waiting for the sun
To put in an appearance
I stood on the edge of the wood
Looking into its gloom
Fortifying for that first step
Into the unknown
There was no discernible path
What would this journey cost
In the end would it be worth the pain
There were no answers from the
Silent wood
I released my breath
And began my journey home
Almost a hushed reverence
As if the night were holding its breath
Waiting for the sun
To put in an appearance
I stood on the edge of the wood
Looking into its gloom
Fortifying for that first step
Into the unknown
There was no discernible path
What would this journey cost
In the end would it be worth the pain
There were no answers from the
Silent wood
I released my breath
And began my journey home
The Stranger
She stands there
Hesitating
Feeling as a bird
About to take flight
Wondering where
Hesitating
Feeling as a bird
About to take flight
Wondering where
Her courage has gone
She is alone
As I watch her struggle
Fighting the urge to flee
I realize
I am looking in a mirror
She is alone
As I watch her struggle
Fighting the urge to flee
I realize
I am looking in a mirror
Tale of Woe
What sad fated lovers tale
Brings end to love so freshly born
How can life be ever cruel
And me ever loves mad fool
Finding love then having none
Giddy as a child at play
Gave my heart and soul to taste
Stolen moments of pure bliss
Sweet perfection loves first kiss
Vivid dreams now laid to waste
I now live within that dream
Hiding from life's crueler truth
Living on sweet memories bliss
Tasting still my lovers kiss
Gone forever with my youth
Brings end to love so freshly born
How can life be ever cruel
And me ever loves mad fool
Finding love then having none
Giddy as a child at play
Gave my heart and soul to taste
Stolen moments of pure bliss
Sweet perfection loves first kiss
Vivid dreams now laid to waste
I now live within that dream
Hiding from life's crueler truth
Living on sweet memories bliss
Tasting still my lovers kiss
Gone forever with my youth
Singsong Kind of night
It's a singsong kind of night
Nocturnal neighbors hum their tunes
Quiet aftermath of storms
Clouds play hid and seek with moon
Tree frogs sing their mating song
Challenge rising here and there
Mixed within the crickets play
Distant thunder fills the air
Silence all the manmade noise
Close my eyes and breathing slows
Concentrate on slowing down
Symphony of nature grows
This shall be my lullaby
All the night sounds harmonize
Calm shall be my goal this night
Breathing slow, shuttered eyes
Nocturnal neighbors hum their tunes
Quiet aftermath of storms
Clouds play hid and seek with moon
Tree frogs sing their mating song
Challenge rising here and there
Mixed within the crickets play
Distant thunder fills the air
Silence all the manmade noise
Close my eyes and breathing slows
Concentrate on slowing down
Symphony of nature grows
This shall be my lullaby
All the night sounds harmonize
Calm shall be my goal this night
Breathing slow, shuttered eyes
Sunday, August 3, 2014
What you make of it
I am exhausted
I stare at blank pages looking for meaning
Not making any sense of what is before me
Too tired to try
Where should I turn
Who can hear me without hearing their own
truths louder
Is there a safe place to put this load down
and rest awhile
I need distance
Call it a breather, a chance to regroup
It's not important what name you give it
it is a pause
I'm not quitting
I am far too stubborn to give up, give in
The joy I am seeking is just around the corner
I know it is
I'm sure it is
I stare at blank pages looking for meaning
Not making any sense of what is before me
Too tired to try
Where should I turn
Who can hear me without hearing their own
truths louder
Is there a safe place to put this load down
and rest awhile
I need distance
Call it a breather, a chance to regroup
It's not important what name you give it
it is a pause
I'm not quitting
I am far too stubborn to give up, give in
The joy I am seeking is just around the corner
I know it is
I'm sure it is
Saturday, August 2, 2014
Son
Those chocolate eyes that pierce my heart
And fill my soul with joy
The smile that lights you from within
My darling little boy
I'd no idea the love I'd feel
When I held you in my arms
How right it was to just give in
To my baby's charms
And as you grew so did my love
I couldn't get enough
Of holding you and kissing you
And all that mommy stuff
And now you're grown, a family man
With babies of your own
But to me you will always be
My darling baby son
And fill my soul with joy
The smile that lights you from within
My darling little boy
I'd no idea the love I'd feel
When I held you in my arms
How right it was to just give in
To my baby's charms
And as you grew so did my love
I couldn't get enough
Of holding you and kissing you
And all that mommy stuff
And now you're grown, a family man
With babies of your own
But to me you will always be
My darling baby son
Questions
Why am I alone in this heartfelt sorrow
Grieving for a love I thought we shared
Where did you go
When did your heart leave me
Without my notice
How did I miss that you no longer cared
When did our journey cease to matter
Have I been traveling alone for long
When did my lover become a stranger
Did you try to tell me and I refused
To listen
Or were you trying to be kind
While trapped in this lie
I don't know who to be angry with
Or is anger just to mask the fear
Knowing my journey is a solitary one now
No longer even the illusion of having you near
To catch me if I stumble
As I surely will
If I know anything
I know this
You loved me once
We loved
Oh how we loved
And I still love you
Enough to wish you joy
And mean it
Grieving for a love I thought we shared
Where did you go
When did your heart leave me
Without my notice
How did I miss that you no longer cared
When did our journey cease to matter
Have I been traveling alone for long
When did my lover become a stranger
Did you try to tell me and I refused
To listen
Or were you trying to be kind
While trapped in this lie
I don't know who to be angry with
Or is anger just to mask the fear
Knowing my journey is a solitary one now
No longer even the illusion of having you near
To catch me if I stumble
As I surely will
If I know anything
I know this
You loved me once
We loved
Oh how we loved
And I still love you
Enough to wish you joy
And mean it
Monday, July 28, 2014
Unbroken
Not long ago I had a love
A love beyond compare
Then in a blink it all was gone
His light and life brought to and end
And now no matter where I go
I cannot bring him home again
And home's not home without him there
And sadness does not say enough
For sorrow is the garb I wear
yet even as I stagger on
And heavy is my heart
I can't regret the love I've known
For sorrow is a grief well born
My sorrow's not despair
A love beyond compare
Then in a blink it all was gone
His light and life brought to and end
And now no matter where I go
I cannot bring him home again
And home's not home without him there
And sadness does not say enough
For sorrow is the garb I wear
yet even as I stagger on
And heavy is my heart
I can't regret the love I've known
For sorrow is a grief well born
My sorrow's not despair
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Losing Ground
She doesn't know how she ended up here
in this damaged life that is now hers
She thought she was resilient
Never saw this coming
Her mind failing her
Tricking her into paranoia too strong
To break free of
She was always exploring
Looking for gentle answers in an
unkind world
Never dreaming she would end up here
So broken
Unable to go even one day
Without the medication that keeps
The mania at bay
Her world is tilted
No longer in balance
Each day is its own little nightmare
she can't wake from
So afraid she will disappear
She wants her life back
But she's losing ground
She's losing ground
in this damaged life that is now hers
She thought she was resilient
Never saw this coming
Her mind failing her
Tricking her into paranoia too strong
To break free of
She was always exploring
Looking for gentle answers in an
unkind world
Never dreaming she would end up here
So broken
Unable to go even one day
Without the medication that keeps
The mania at bay
Her world is tilted
No longer in balance
Each day is its own little nightmare
she can't wake from
So afraid she will disappear
She wants her life back
But she's losing ground
She's losing ground
Hungry
I've acquired a taste for solitude
My tired mind is hungry for a feast
Of empty hours
Time filled with internal field trips
That feed my weary soul
To do nothing
Answer no questions but my own
Breathe
Care not the time or day
To be still
And listen to the turning of the earth
I've acquired a taste for solitude
And I am ravenous
My tired mind is hungry for a feast
Of empty hours
Time filled with internal field trips
That feed my weary soul
To do nothing
Answer no questions but my own
Breathe
Care not the time or day
To be still
And listen to the turning of the earth
I've acquired a taste for solitude
And I am ravenous
Friday, July 25, 2014
World of Solitude
Carelessly creating memories
Too bitter to share
Each moment I live is a struggle
My silent war
I cannot invite others in
To view the mess I have made
Of my life
Hopeless
This is how walls are built
With little embarrassments
That become secrets
I cannot share
Where can I turn when I've lost sight
Of myself
Who will hear me
Screaming
I sit in my world of solitude
A place of my own invention
My private hell
When I reach out
Too bitter to share
Each moment I live is a struggle
My silent war
I cannot invite others in
To view the mess I have made
Of my life
Hopeless
This is how walls are built
With little embarrassments
That become secrets
I cannot share
Where can I turn when I've lost sight
Of myself
Who will hear me
Screaming
I sit in my world of solitude
A place of my own invention
My private hell
When I reach out
There is only emptiness
No one is there
I never let them in
No one is there
I never let them in
Monday, July 21, 2014
Life
So many things I'm learning to see
The time spent in quiet contemplation
This marvelous world spinning all around me
Is fodder for my rumination
I must admit, daily I find
Things too numerous and amazing
From people to places to quiet embraces
The sights and the sounds keep me gazing
From puppies to rainbows to gothic cathedrals
The magic around keeps unfolding
Each new discovery brings smiles to my heart
Each one I am happily beholding
I'm taking my time to take it all in
Won't chance a new wonder be wasted
Each day brings such joys, where shall I begin
Won't let life rush by me untasted
The time spent in quiet contemplation
This marvelous world spinning all around me
Is fodder for my rumination
I must admit, daily I find
Things too numerous and amazing
From people to places to quiet embraces
The sights and the sounds keep me gazing
From puppies to rainbows to gothic cathedrals
The magic around keeps unfolding
Each new discovery brings smiles to my heart
Each one I am happily beholding
I'm taking my time to take it all in
Won't chance a new wonder be wasted
Each day brings such joys, where shall I begin
Won't let life rush by me untasted
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Welcome
The gentle showers play their tune
On the wind chimes
Hanging from the deck
Cozy in my haven,
Hammock chair and umbrella
I let the music take me
Lulling me to sleep
This is a day for poetry
On the wind chimes
Hanging from the deck
Cozy in my haven,
Hammock chair and umbrella
I let the music take me
Lulling me to sleep
This is a day for poetry
And dreams
And I say
Welcome
For what is poetry
But a dream captured
And what is life for
If not to dream
And I say
Welcome
For what is poetry
But a dream captured
And what is life for
If not to dream
Summer Cicada Day
Sipping wine, hanging in the air
Relaxing in a hammock chair
Gentle breeze blows clouds around
I am four feet off the ground
Birds and bees both sing their tune
As I laze all afternoon
Cicadas join the lazy song
I could stay all summer long
Relaxing in a hammock chair
Gentle breeze blows clouds around
I am four feet off the ground
Birds and bees both sing their tune
As I laze all afternoon
Cicadas join the lazy song
I could stay all summer long
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Crazy Love
What's that flippity fluttery feeling
That I feel each time you speak
I'm happy when I'm watching you
No, I'm not some crazy freak
Peeking round the corner staring
What did you eat for lunch today
Follow you as you go shopping
Hiding while I watch you pay
Crouching down so you don't see me
As you pass when you're out walking
This is just my way of caring
Although some people call it stalking
I can't believe you're pressing charges
Was I really scaring you
Mostly you didn't even see me
What's a girl in love to do
That I feel each time you speak
I'm happy when I'm watching you
No, I'm not some crazy freak
Peeking round the corner staring
What did you eat for lunch today
Follow you as you go shopping
Hiding while I watch you pay
Crouching down so you don't see me
As you pass when you're out walking
This is just my way of caring
Although some people call it stalking
I can't believe you're pressing charges
Was I really scaring you
Mostly you didn't even see me
What's a girl in love to do
Words
They're trapped up there
Deep inside my head
Clawing to get out
Wanting to be read
Jumbled words invade
Every tiny space
Racing round and round
Blank look on my face
Thoughts coalesce
Sentences are formed
Down and out they race
Poetry is born
Deep inside my head
Clawing to get out
Wanting to be read
Jumbled words invade
Every tiny space
Racing round and round
Blank look on my face
Thoughts coalesce
Sentences are formed
Down and out they race
Poetry is born
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Winter Days
The air it was so cold today
It pulled the breath right out of me
So bitter cold it burned my cheeks
And tears sprang to my eyes
So just the act of breathing
Was a challenge and surprise
I like the feel of winter days
The crisp and brittle air
Breath hanging free in smoky plumes
Frosty message in the air
The numbness starting in my toes
Ice crystals fill the air
I know when winters over
I will welcome in the spring
Throw off my coat with glad relief
Forgetting winters wondrous ways
While wrapped in springtime's gentle hug
I'll celebrate the warmer days
It pulled the breath right out of me
So bitter cold it burned my cheeks
And tears sprang to my eyes
So just the act of breathing
Was a challenge and surprise
I like the feel of winter days
The crisp and brittle air
Breath hanging free in smoky plumes
Frosty message in the air
The numbness starting in my toes
Ice crystals fill the air
I know when winters over
I will welcome in the spring
Throw off my coat with glad relief
Forgetting winters wondrous ways
While wrapped in springtime's gentle hug
I'll celebrate the warmer days
Forgiveness
When I can no longer linger
Will you welcome me back home
When I can no longer wander
Can I come to you alone
Will you welcome me back home
Do the deeds of my own making
Will you welcome me back home
When I can no longer wander
Can I come to you alone
Will you welcome me back home
All this endless lonely wandering
Running from mistakes I've made
For too long has had me wondering
Has the debt I owed been paid
Can my life now be remade
All the years are crashing 'round me
Feel the emptiness of shame
If at home will love surround me
Searching for surcease of pain
Can I come back home again
Do the deeds of my own making
Keep from me a chance of peace
Will your love for me be waiting
Can this endless journey cease
Will your love be my release
Silent comes the night
Slippery softly ends the daylight
Darkness takes the light away
Shadows lengthen, darkling deepens
All as quiet as a breath
Shapeless shadows steal the day
Lonely rooms without a memory
Wander aimless in and out
Try to capture dying daylight
Sweet and shy is daytimes flight
Slippery silent comes the night
And my soul still wanders hallways
Thick in shadows deepest gloom
Searching for a love long taken
Hall by hallway, room by room
Finding only loves sad tomb
Endless wanderings
Darkness takes the light away
Shadows lengthen, darkling deepens
All as quiet as a breath
Shapeless shadows steal the day
Lonely rooms without a memory
Wander aimless in and out
Try to capture dying daylight
Sweet and shy is daytimes flight
Slippery silent comes the night
And my soul still wanders hallways
Thick in shadows deepest gloom
Searching for a love long taken
Hall by hallway, room by room
Finding only loves sad tomb
Endless wanderings
My own tomb
For a Friend
If I could make you happy
If I could make you smile
If I could ease your troubles
If even for a while
If I could lift your burden
When you are feeling blue
In this you can be certain
It is what I would do
For you are quite the person
A tried and true blue friend
And I will stand beside you
Until the bitter end
For I find I'm standing taller
Since I first met you
That you count me as a friend
Is the reason that I do
If I could make you smile
If I could ease your troubles
If even for a while
If I could lift your burden
When you are feeling blue
In this you can be certain
It is what I would do
For you are quite the person
A tried and true blue friend
And I will stand beside you
Until the bitter end
For I find I'm standing taller
Since I first met you
That you count me as a friend
Is the reason that I do
Monday, July 14, 2014
The Art of Love
I wish that I could make you see
The colors, textures of your love
The richness and the vibrancy
The complex canvas of your love
I wish that I could paint with words
The way artists do with color
I'd draw a portrait of your love
More vibrant than any other
I wish I could somehow express
The way the artists do
I'd paint with words both bold and strong
The way that I love you
The colors, textures of your love
The richness and the vibrancy
The complex canvas of your love
I wish that I could paint with words
The way artists do with color
I'd draw a portrait of your love
More vibrant than any other
I wish I could somehow express
The way the artists do
I'd paint with words both bold and strong
The way that I love you
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Conversations
The other day I spoke with my mother
She said she had just been a dozin
There wasn't a thing to do around home
And the world outside was all frozen
She mentioned she may have been watching
Kinda lazy and not paying attention
A movie she'd seen several times before
She said it was called Fried Green Onions
Now I've loved this woman for all of my life
So it doesn't affect my opinion
To hear she was watching an old favorite film
But not knowing its Tomatoes, not Onions
She said she had just been a dozin
There wasn't a thing to do around home
And the world outside was all frozen
She mentioned she may have been watching
Kinda lazy and not paying attention
A movie she'd seen several times before
She said it was called Fried Green Onions
Now I've loved this woman for all of my life
So it doesn't affect my opinion
To hear she was watching an old favorite film
But not knowing its Tomatoes, not Onions
My Brothers Keeper
I grow weary of the attitudes
Of the multitudes with their
platitudes
Disengaging from the caring
Not responsible for the sharing
The callousness makes me angry
Don't you care that there are hungry
Who are you to say it's not real
Are you hungry for your next meal
To be your brother's keeper's not a
bad thing
This is not about the left or the right wing
This is all about our own humanity
How can it be that you really don't see
Society is failing and has gone wild
When turning its back on even one child
We should all find it quite unnerving
That we think we can decide who is deserving
We've become our own worst nightmare
When we pick and choose when to care
You see "illegal", a child is what I see
Take a good look in the mirror
What do you see
Do you see that you are losing
Your humanity
Of the multitudes with their
platitudes
Disengaging from the caring
Not responsible for the sharing
The callousness makes me angry
Don't you care that there are hungry
Who are you to say it's not real
Are you hungry for your next meal
To be your brother's keeper's not a
bad thing
This is not about the left or the right wing
This is all about our own humanity
How can it be that you really don't see
Society is failing and has gone wild
When turning its back on even one child
We should all find it quite unnerving
That we think we can decide who is deserving
We've become our own worst nightmare
When we pick and choose when to care
You see "illegal", a child is what I see
Take a good look in the mirror
What do you see
Do you see that you are losing
Your humanity
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Homeless
Go home
There's nothing more to be
done here
You should get some rest
Go home they say
As I stand on the edge of my life
looking in
I can't go home
Home is where you are
There is no more home for me
You're here
But you're gone
There's nothing more to be
done here
You should get some rest
Go home they say
As I stand on the edge of my life
looking in
I can't go home
Home is where you are
There is no more home for me
You're here
But you're gone
Sigh for Sigh
In the quiet of the bedroom
In the stillness of the night
I lie awake and listen to
The steady rhythm of your breathing
And my own breath matches yours
Deep and even
Sigh for sigh
Deep and even
Sigh for sigh
Curled around you gently weaving
Limb and limb in loose caress
Silky languid thoughts releasing
All the daytimes useless stress
Time slows down and leaves me dreaming
Sweetly dreaming
Soul at rest
Sweetly dreaming
Soul at rest
In the stillness of the night
I lie awake and listen to
The steady rhythm of your breathing
And my own breath matches yours
Deep and even
Sigh for sigh
Deep and even
Sigh for sigh
Curled around you gently weaving
Limb and limb in loose caress
Silky languid thoughts releasing
All the daytimes useless stress
Time slows down and leaves me dreaming
Sweetly dreaming
Soul at rest
Sweetly dreaming
Soul at rest
Careless
Carelessly caress me
I long for your touch
You carelessly possess me
I love you too much
Endlessly embrace me
I can't tell you no
You endlessly erase me
Where did I go
I long for your touch
You carelessly possess me
I love you too much
Endlessly embrace me
I can't tell you no
You endlessly erase me
Where did I go
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
CJB
I stand holding a book
Clutched to my chest
Forlorn
Memories of you
Written by loved ones
Fill the pages
I can't remember the last time
I looked at it
I don't remember where
I had it stored
Or why it showed up now
Out of the blue
Blue like your eyes
Pain refreshed
Love remembered
Loss recalled
Bittersweet memories of you
I wouldn't trade
For the world
Clutched to my chest
Forlorn
Memories of you
Written by loved ones
Fill the pages
I can't remember the last time
I looked at it
I don't remember where
I had it stored
Or why it showed up now
Out of the blue
Blue like your eyes
Pain refreshed
Love remembered
Loss recalled
Bittersweet memories of you
I wouldn't trade
For the world
Sorrows Hold
When will this longing aching need
Cease to steal my peace of mind
When will I wake from slumbers hold
Mind free from sorrows weary grasp
Soul free to soar unbound at last
How can such losses be endured
Can will alone complete this task
If I but set aside the pain
And say goodbye with heavy heart
Then will my freedom I attain
Then shall my soul be free again
Cease to steal my peace of mind
When will I wake from slumbers hold
Mind free from sorrows weary grasp
Soul free to soar unbound at last
How can such losses be endured
Can will alone complete this task
If I but set aside the pain
And say goodbye with heavy heart
Then will my freedom I attain
Then shall my soul be free again
Sleep
When I'm tired but restless
In need of some relief
I yearn to find that tantalizing
Reenergizing
State of bliss
The state that we call sleep
It's true that we all crave it
The longing is so deep
That often times I daydream
Of stretching out
And drifting off
To lovely, lovely sleep
Yet when my day is over
And to bed I finally creep
In bed my eyes snap open wide
I toss and turn
Back, stomach, side
I can't succumb to sleep
But, ah, those times we do achieve
That wondrous elusive state
We snuggle down with heavy sigh
Roll over and
Attain the prize
Ah sleep, most blissful state
In need of some relief
I yearn to find that tantalizing
Reenergizing
State of bliss
The state that we call sleep
It's true that we all crave it
The longing is so deep
That often times I daydream
Of stretching out
And drifting off
To lovely, lovely sleep
Yet when my day is over
And to bed I finally creep
In bed my eyes snap open wide
I toss and turn
Back, stomach, side
I can't succumb to sleep
But, ah, those times we do achieve
That wondrous elusive state
We snuggle down with heavy sigh
Roll over and
Attain the prize
Ah sleep, most blissful state
Turmoil
To Bed! To Bed! My body said
Your eyes they are half closed
Turn off our brain and get some sleep
Now is the time for counting sheep
Not messing with some prose
But what if as we start to doze
My brain now asks my body
I suddenly hear metered rhymes
Or better yet those ceaseless chimes
And we must tell somebody
Enough! Enough! My body cries
We need to get some rest
This can't go on both day and night
I'll look a mess by mornings light
And can't be at my best
Okay! Okay! my brain cajoles
I see I must comply
I'll do my best to shut it down
You go and lay that body down
We'll both give sleep a try
Now is the time for counting sheep
Not messing with some prose
But what if as we start to doze
My brain now asks my body
I suddenly hear metered rhymes
Or better yet those ceaseless chimes
And we must tell somebody
Enough! Enough! My body cries
We need to get some rest
This can't go on both day and night
I'll look a mess by mornings light
And can't be at my best
Okay! Okay! my brain cajoles
I see I must comply
I'll do my best to shut it down
You go and lay that body down
We'll both give sleep a try
A New Direction
A new direction is leading me
Away from you
Wanted to take a different route
I didn't know that's what is was
Going to do
I wanted to be different
I wanted to be different
break my old routine
Thought I'd make a change
Thought I'd make a change
From where I had been
Wanted to take a different route
See a different view
I didn't know the route would lead
I didn't know the route would lead
Away from you
I struggle with the changes my new
Views require
If I said I wasn't sorry I would
I struggle with the changes my new
Views require
If I said I wasn't sorry I would
Be a liar
But I'm also feeling selfish and I need
But I'm also feeling selfish and I need
To try
Didn't know this new direction would
include goodbye
Didn't know this new direction would
include goodbye
Intuition
He sang to me over the phone
Before our first date
I knew what I was doing
When I said
I would go out with him
That very night
I knew
This is crazy
They told me
How could you possibly know
After only a few hours
In his company
Impossible to know
I knew
He still sings to me
And plays his guitar
And, perhaps it was crazy
That I knew
I would love him
All my life
But
I did know
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Three Random Kisses
With three random kisses
You completely stole my heart
You leaned right in with your sweet grin
You had me from the start
Each moment that I spend with you
Is more precious than the last
You refresh me without effort
You free me from my past
I hope someday to let you know
Just what you mean to me
How hearing you say grandma
Makes me happy to be me
You completely stole my heart
You leaned right in with your sweet grin
You had me from the start
Each moment that I spend with you
Is more precious than the last
You refresh me without effort
You free me from my past
I hope someday to let you know
Just what you mean to me
How hearing you say grandma
Makes me happy to be me
Monday, June 30, 2014
Talking to Walls
You don't hear me
Even as you say you love me
You won't hear me
How can we move on from here
You don't hear me
Why are you afraid to listen
You won't hear me
How can you pretend to care
You don't hear me
I am desperate for a reaction
You won't hear me
Am I left with this despair
You don't hear me
Is there no way to get through
You won't hear me
How can I get through to you
You don't hear me
And believe me I have tried
You won't hear me
All my pleas have been denied
Even as you say you love me
You won't hear me
How can we move on from here
You don't hear me
Why are you afraid to listen
You won't hear me
How can you pretend to care
You don't hear me
I am desperate for a reaction
You won't hear me
Am I left with this despair
You don't hear me
Is there no way to get through
You won't hear me
How can I get through to you
You don't hear me
And believe me I have tried
You won't hear me
All my pleas have been denied
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Pictures
How do these people get
These selfies so delightful
Whenever I strike a pose
It comes out rather frightful
My mother said to me one day
"you know I've always said"
"I'm just not photogenic"
"It isn't in my head"
"But now I wonder," mother said
"if somehow that's not flawed"
"perhaps I'm not as pretty"
"as I thought I was"
I have to say I love this
Her perfect point of view
Except, perhaps, how it applies
To me
So sad but perhaps, true
These selfies so delightful
Whenever I strike a pose
It comes out rather frightful
My mother said to me one day
"you know I've always said"
"I'm just not photogenic"
"It isn't in my head"
"But now I wonder," mother said
"if somehow that's not flawed"
"perhaps I'm not as pretty"
"as I thought I was"
I have to say I love this
Her perfect point of view
Except, perhaps, how it applies
To me
So sad but perhaps, true
To....
You came into my life like home
So strong and kind and true
You cared for me and I felt loved
So happy I had you
Then we went our separate ways
Our lives and paths diverged
No longer sharing daily things
Our lives no longer merged
I never felt the loss of you
I knew we'd always care
Our bond remained unbroken
Forged by the times we shared
Though years and miles have come between
Long lifetimes spent apart
You've always been right here with me
I hold you in my heart
So strong and kind and true
You cared for me and I felt loved
So happy I had you
Then we went our separate ways
Our lives and paths diverged
No longer sharing daily things
Our lives no longer merged
I never felt the loss of you
I knew we'd always care
Our bond remained unbroken
Forged by the times we shared
Though years and miles have come between
Long lifetimes spent apart
You've always been right here with me
I hold you in my heart
Life Well Spent
The years, the years are flashing by
The girl I was who yearned for love
The carefree days not treasured then
Are treasured now, so cherished now
Young wife and mother took her place
With carefree days put on a shelf
Replaced by long and sleepless nights
Days of wet kisses, laughter and tears
When did the young wife disappear
Replaced by working mom and boss
The days they fly, no time to think
Or plan or mourn her loss
And now I go by grandma
And wonder where time went
Though deep inside I'm still that girl
It's been a life well spent
The girl I was who yearned for love
The carefree days not treasured then
Are treasured now, so cherished now
Young wife and mother took her place
With carefree days put on a shelf
Replaced by long and sleepless nights
Days of wet kisses, laughter and tears
When did the young wife disappear
Replaced by working mom and boss
The days they fly, no time to think
Or plan or mourn her loss
And now I go by grandma
And wonder where time went
Though deep inside I'm still that girl
It's been a life well spent
This Girls Best Friend
It's said that dog is mans best friend
And I'll agree it's true
For many a marvelous times been had
By those who share that view
For some the best friend to be had
Has claws and humming purr
A cat for some is where it's at
A purring ball of fur
But not for me four legged friends
Which have been all the rage
For me a sassy ball of fluff
Best suited to a cage
He's just about four inches high
When measured end to end
But this bossy little marvel
Sure is this girls' best friend
I find it so amusing
Amazing is the word
To curl up on the sofa
And cuddle with a bird
I didn't know he'd trust me so
And lay upon his back
Stretch his head left then right
So I could scratch his neck
Yes I am here to tell you
Infatuated is the word
I am completely smitten by
A neurotic little bird
And I'll agree it's true
For many a marvelous times been had
By those who share that view
For some the best friend to be had
Has claws and humming purr
A cat for some is where it's at
A purring ball of fur
But not for me four legged friends
Which have been all the rage
For me a sassy ball of fluff
Best suited to a cage
He's just about four inches high
When measured end to end
But this bossy little marvel
Sure is this girls' best friend
I find it so amusing
Amazing is the word
To curl up on the sofa
And cuddle with a bird
I didn't know he'd trust me so
And lay upon his back
Stretch his head left then right
So I could scratch his neck
Yes I am here to tell you
Infatuated is the word
I am completely smitten by
A neurotic little bird
K
Heart of my heart
I feel you in tune with me
I am safe within the love we share
I know you breathe when I do
As if my pulse beat within you
Dream of my dreams
We two are meant to fit as one
This is the love that lifetime shared
Creates a bond that makes both strong
With you I am where I belong
I feel you in tune with me
I am safe within the love we share
I know you breathe when I do
As if my pulse beat within you
Dream of my dreams
We two are meant to fit as one
This is the love that lifetime shared
Creates a bond that makes both strong
With you I am where I belong
Life is for Laughter
Life is for laughter
And sharing and growing
For teaching and learning
The things worth the knowing
It's taking the time
To reflect with a smile
On the wonderful friends
I've enjoyed all the while
My life is just brimming
With loved ones who share
The good times and bad times
The joy and despair
To all of my loved ones
And dear friends I speak of
I thank you for all of
Your laughter and love
And sharing and growing
For teaching and learning
The things worth the knowing
It's taking the time
To reflect with a smile
On the wonderful friends
I've enjoyed all the while
My life is just brimming
With loved ones who share
The good times and bad times
The joy and despair
To all of my loved ones
And dear friends I speak of
I thank you for all of
Your laughter and love
Close of the Day
At the close of the day
I find I yearn for your company
To have you close
And talk quietly
To share the thoughts
That I thought today
And to listen to yours
Time drags on endlessly
When you're away
And speeds by mercilessly
When we're together
So that all too soon
The time is gone
And I must leave you
For awhile
So come to me quickly
And slow down time
Until it creeps
So that I
May spend eternity
With you
I find I yearn for your company
To have you close
And talk quietly
To share the thoughts
That I thought today
And to listen to yours
Time drags on endlessly
When you're away
And speeds by mercilessly
When we're together
So that all too soon
The time is gone
And I must leave you
For awhile
So come to me quickly
And slow down time
Until it creeps
So that I
May spend eternity
With you
Work in Progress
I am a work in progress
Changing, learning to grow
To find out more answers
To questions not thought of
So many things I still don't know
For a time I stopped asking questions
Preferring to coast through the day
Pretending that knowing
Was more important than growing
I know now that wasn't the way
I find myself liking the questions
The comfort of "I just don't know"
What was scary before
Keeps me now wanting more
More answers to what I don't know
Changing, learning to grow
To find out more answers
To questions not thought of
So many things I still don't know
For a time I stopped asking questions
Preferring to coast through the day
Pretending that knowing
Was more important than growing
I know now that wasn't the way
I find myself liking the questions
The comfort of "I just don't know"
What was scary before
Keeps me now wanting more
More answers to what I don't know
Friday, June 27, 2014
Madly in Love
As if my world were ending
Wishing I might die
As if I could stop loving you
Your love was just a lie
Is this really happening
There's nothing I can do
You tell me you are leaving me
Worst nightmare coming true
What started all this madness
Or was it all a lie
My life is now all sadness
You're telling me goodbye
I started a new book today
I say to empty air
I force a smile, don't look around
Pretend that you're still there
What started all this madness....
Wishing I might die
As if I could stop loving you
Your love was just a lie
Is this really happening
There's nothing I can do
You tell me you are leaving me
Worst nightmare coming true
What started all this madness
Or was it all a lie
My life is now all sadness
You're telling me goodbye
I started a new book today
I say to empty air
I force a smile, don't look around
Pretend that you're still there
What started all this madness....
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Dichotomy
I am pain
I am sorrow
I am choking on tears
I have been for years
And will be tomorrow
As I weep
I am healing
I am learning to let go
Of things too hard to know
And pain I'm still feeling
I am calm
I am giving
I am learning to treasure
Both sorrow and pleasure
All the aspects of living
I am joy
I am laughter
It's all a part of me
Now beginning to see
The life I am after
I am sorrow
I am choking on tears
I have been for years
And will be tomorrow
As I weep
I am healing
I am learning to let go
Of things too hard to know
And pain I'm still feeling
I am calm
I am giving
I am learning to treasure
Both sorrow and pleasure
All the aspects of living
I am joy
I am laughter
It's all a part of me
Now beginning to see
The life I am after
Opposites Attract
The longer I live
The less I am sure of
Life's meaning eludes me
And questions confuse me
How do you survive love
The more love I give
The loss is just more pain
As opposites attract
So joy attracts sorrow
Broken pieces remain
There never was great love
Not worth painful sorrow
The joys that the love brings
Are worth every heartache
That looms on the morrow
So life, I embrace thee
For love is ours to share
And joy is a potion
And pain will be fleeting
And worth how you got there
The less I am sure of
Life's meaning eludes me
And questions confuse me
How do you survive love
The more love I give
The loss is just more pain
As opposites attract
So joy attracts sorrow
Broken pieces remain
There never was great love
Not worth painful sorrow
The joys that the love brings
Are worth every heartache
That looms on the morrow
So life, I embrace thee
For love is ours to share
And joy is a potion
And pain will be fleeting
And worth how you got there
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Mysterious smile
There are times I find I'm smiling
For no apparent cause
I'm grinning like a lunatic
As those around me pause
They glance first at each other
Then return their gaze to me
The question on their faces is
Do You see what I see
But I ignore their gazes
Their curious puzzled glance
I know I'm smiling cuz in my head
I'm doing a silly dance
For no apparent cause
I'm grinning like a lunatic
As those around me pause
They glance first at each other
Then return their gaze to me
The question on their faces is
Do You see what I see
But I ignore their gazes
Their curious puzzled glance
I know I'm smiling cuz in my head
I'm doing a silly dance
Laughter
The laughter of the children
Life's sweetest melody
The joy of sweet abandonment
Can fill my soul with glee
I find I stare in wonder
A smile upon my face
To see such precious innocence
Is a form of grace
For bringing instant pleasure
There's nothing to compare
To the sound of children's laughter
Music in the air
Life's sweetest melody
The joy of sweet abandonment
Can fill my soul with glee
I find I stare in wonder
A smile upon my face
To see such precious innocence
Is a form of grace
For bringing instant pleasure
There's nothing to compare
To the sound of children's laughter
Music in the air
Alone
You need to listen to your heart
Is what they always say
But my heart has just been silent
Since you went away
I try to feel it beating
Alone in our old place
But there isn't any feeling
Just an empty space
I'm sure that I'll get through this
I just don't know the how
Someday I'll find some happiness
But someday isn't now
Is what they always say
But my heart has just been silent
Since you went away
I try to feel it beating
Alone in our old place
But there isn't any feeling
Just an empty space
I'm sure that I'll get through this
I just don't know the how
Someday I'll find some happiness
But someday isn't now
Loves Fool
I want to wear my love for you
Like a silly hat
So everyone will smile at us
Like the Cheshire Cat
I want to sing my love for you
Walking through a crowd
And everyone will join right in
Singing rather loud
For your love has made me foolish
A giddy bumbling mess
What crazy thing will I do next
Is anybody's guess
Like a silly hat
So everyone will smile at us
Like the Cheshire Cat
I want to sing my love for you
Walking through a crowd
And everyone will join right in
Singing rather loud
For your love has made me foolish
A giddy bumbling mess
What crazy thing will I do next
Is anybody's guess
That Old Song
They're playing that old song again
The one that made you smile
The one you always sang to
In your crazy style
You sang along, knew every word
You never missed a beat
You'd motion me to join right in
Swept me off my feet
We've been together ever since
Our life has been a song
All because you sang for me
And I sang along
The one that made you smile
The one you always sang to
In your crazy style
You sang along, knew every word
You never missed a beat
You'd motion me to join right in
Swept me off my feet
We've been together ever since
Our life has been a song
All because you sang for me
And I sang along
The One
Not looking for a dashing prince
With nose up in the air
I want a man who's strong and kind
The kind of guy mom had in mind
Who wants a life to share
He doesn't really have a face
Won't recognize his voice
I'll know him by his gentle ways
His kindness that goes on for days
That's how I'll make my choice
And that is how my story goes
It's happily ever after
I found that man and made him mine
I'll love him til the end of time
How did I find this man of mine
I recognized his laughter
With nose up in the air
I want a man who's strong and kind
The kind of guy mom had in mind
Who wants a life to share
He doesn't really have a face
Won't recognize his voice
I'll know him by his gentle ways
His kindness that goes on for days
That's how I'll make my choice
And that is how my story goes
It's happily ever after
I found that man and made him mine
I'll love him til the end of time
How did I find this man of mine
I recognized his laughter
Monday, June 23, 2014
Care for me
Care for me
Make me important as air
To you
Don't keep me wondering if
Make me important as air
To you
Don't keep me wondering if
I'm good for you
Treasure me
For I care for you
I'd spend a lifetime
Treasure me
For I care for you
I'd spend a lifetime
To make you mine
Tell you I love you
All the time
If you will care for me
I desperately need you
Tell you I love you
All the time
If you will care for me
I desperately need you
To care for me
Pretty Ponies
Pretty pictures from a child
Painted ponies running wild
Faded memories, dreams undone
Pretty ponies on the run
Damage done, yet dreams remain
Pretty pictures cover pain
All the dreams not coming true
There is nothing left of you
Painted pictures from a child
Pretty ponies running wild
Close your eyes, run far away
Pretty ponies never stay
Painted ponies running wild
Faded memories, dreams undone
Pretty ponies on the run
Damage done, yet dreams remain
Pretty pictures cover pain
All the dreams not coming true
There is nothing left of you
Painted pictures from a child
Pretty ponies running wild
Close your eyes, run far away
Pretty ponies never stay
Gone
Eyelids scrape the surface
of sandpaper eyes
Hope or desperation
pushes me forward
Never expecting
Always hoping
Against all reason
I will see your face again
Even though
I know
You are gone
of sandpaper eyes
Hope or desperation
pushes me forward
Never expecting
Always hoping
Against all reason
I will see your face again
Even though
I know
You are gone
Second Son
He always surprises me
This young man
Such a serious child to become so insightful
He pulls laughter from my throat unexpectedly
Until tears stream from my eyes
And I stare in wonder
How could I know my quiet little boy
Would see the world so clearly
And teach me to laugh again
This young man
Such a serious child to become so insightful
He pulls laughter from my throat unexpectedly
Until tears stream from my eyes
And I stare in wonder
How could I know my quiet little boy
Would see the world so clearly
And teach me to laugh again
First Born
I didn't know the little boy
with the chocolate eyes
Would own my heart so completely
I always hoped the growing boy
with the chocolate eyes and sunlit smile
Would someday understand how
he inspires me
I never dreamt the fine young man
with the chocolate eyes
Would wrap me in his love
And help me believe in myself
with the chocolate eyes
Would own my heart so completely
I always hoped the growing boy
with the chocolate eyes and sunlit smile
Would someday understand how
he inspires me
I never dreamt the fine young man
with the chocolate eyes
Would wrap me in his love
And help me believe in myself
PSH
Where do you put the sadness
When the loss is still so new
When each new revelation
Brings pain that blooms in you
I heard about your struggles
That demons dogged your days
And find it hard to reconcile
This knowledge of your ways
The joy you brought to others
Your twinkling eyes, your smile
Make your loss seem greater still
Leaves me longing for denial
How did I never see your pain
I never saw your need
I wish I could have saved you
Your lose is great indeed
When the loss is still so new
When each new revelation
Brings pain that blooms in you
I heard about your struggles
That demons dogged your days
And find it hard to reconcile
This knowledge of your ways
The joy you brought to others
Your twinkling eyes, your smile
Make your loss seem greater still
Leaves me longing for denial
How did I never see your pain
I never saw your need
I wish I could have saved you
Your lose is great indeed
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Childhood Dreams
It's been a while dear friend of mine
Since we shared our childhood schemes
We've had ourselves a lifetime
Far different from our dreams
Do you recall, we used to sit
How we would talk in whispers
With heads bent, almost touching
We were as close as sisters
Everything then seemed possible
And might someday come true
At least that's how it felt to me
While whispering with you
I look back fondly on those times
From the life I'm living know
I find myself so grateful
They helped shape me somehow
That life is so very different
From our whispered schemes
Matters not one little bit to me
I cherish childhood dreams
Since we shared our childhood schemes
We've had ourselves a lifetime
Far different from our dreams
Do you recall, we used to sit
How we would talk in whispers
With heads bent, almost touching
We were as close as sisters
Everything then seemed possible
And might someday come true
At least that's how it felt to me
While whispering with you
I look back fondly on those times
From the life I'm living know
I find myself so grateful
They helped shape me somehow
That life is so very different
From our whispered schemes
Matters not one little bit to me
I cherish childhood dreams
Gentle Waking
I don't remember falling asleep
In your arms
But I must have
My dreams were so sweet
And I was smiling when I woke
I don't know if you kissed me goodbye
When you left
But you must have
For I could still taste you
On my lips, so sweet
I don't remember doing anything special
To earn your love
But I must have
For I have no doubt
Your heart is mine
I don't know if I have told you that
You are my world now
But you must know
Nothing this grand could go
Unnoticed
In your arms
But I must have
My dreams were so sweet
And I was smiling when I woke
I don't know if you kissed me goodbye
When you left
But you must have
For I could still taste you
On my lips, so sweet
I don't remember doing anything special
To earn your love
But I must have
For I have no doubt
Your heart is mine
I don't know if I have told you that
You are my world now
But you must know
Nothing this grand could go
Unnoticed
Saturday, June 21, 2014
Fragile
It's quiet here
That's good
It's what I need
To heal
It's peaceful here
That's fine
Then I don't have
To feel
It's simple here
That's nice
There's not a lot
To do
It's lonesome here
I'm crying
Because there is
No you
That's good
It's what I need
To heal
It's peaceful here
That's fine
Then I don't have
To feel
It's simple here
That's nice
There's not a lot
To do
It's lonesome here
I'm crying
Because there is
No you
Baffled
I'm baffled by this life I live
That has me in it's clutches
While thieves and hellions run wild
I limp around on crutches
The pain it keeps me up at night
The endless toss and turning
I try in vain to ease the pain
And get the rest I'm yearning
I'm hoping there's and end in sight
One not involved with cutting
I'm so afraid to be remade
Is my only path to strutting
That has me in it's clutches
While thieves and hellions run wild
I limp around on crutches
The pain it keeps me up at night
The endless toss and turning
I try in vain to ease the pain
And get the rest I'm yearning
I'm hoping there's and end in sight
One not involved with cutting
I'm so afraid to be remade
Is my only path to strutting
Friday, June 20, 2014
Escape
Escape with me to a summer place
One with quiet spaces
A place from memories long past
Where we can walk and chat and laugh
Where we can be ourselves at last
Escape with me to another time
One with sweet embraces
Where gentle smile and longing stare
Left little doubt how our love flared
And we'll resume our love affair
One with quiet spaces
A place from memories long past
Where we can walk and chat and laugh
Where we can be ourselves at last
Escape with me to another time
One with sweet embraces
Where gentle smile and longing stare
Left little doubt how our love flared
And we'll resume our love affair
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Love Without Regret
I want my heart to let you go
Want my mind to follow
My future needs to be my own
When I wake tomorrow
Won't let go the memories
The loving we two shared
I must let go the crushing pain
Please let my heart be spared
I'll live my life contentedly
Hold fast the joy I knew
For I have had the greatest gift
The gift of loving you
If I should live a thousand years
I never could forget
The wondrous way you made me feel
A love without regret
Want my mind to follow
My future needs to be my own
When I wake tomorrow
Won't let go the memories
The loving we two shared
I must let go the crushing pain
Please let my heart be spared
I'll live my life contentedly
Hold fast the joy I knew
For I have had the greatest gift
The gift of loving you
If I should live a thousand years
I never could forget
The wondrous way you made me feel
A love without regret
Searching
There's nothing but quiet
And raindrops on rooftops
A time made for memories
Made bold by the silence
They pass by my minds eye
Parade without stop
It's here my mind journeys
The paths ever winding
Flit memory to memory
No sense or connection
Ever searching for something
I've no hope of finding
What is it I search for
This internal journey
Which questions unanswered
Are hidden within me
What is it I search for
And where will it lead me
There's nothing but quiet
And raindrops on rooftops
A time made for memories
And internal journeys
Of questions unanswered
Cascading like raindrops
And raindrops on rooftops
A time made for memories
Made bold by the silence
They pass by my minds eye
Parade without stop
It's here my mind journeys
The paths ever winding
Flit memory to memory
No sense or connection
Ever searching for something
I've no hope of finding
What is it I search for
This internal journey
Which questions unanswered
Are hidden within me
What is it I search for
And where will it lead me
There's nothing but quiet
And raindrops on rooftops
A time made for memories
And internal journeys
Of questions unanswered
Cascading like raindrops
Worry
The fear is tightening my chest
I feel I'm fighting tears
I am struggling to take a breath
Haven't been this afraid in years
I'm working hard to keep my calm
Don't want to have you worry
I feel this room is much too warm
I want the time to hurry
I know worry is a useless thing
I know that fear's not real
I know that you will be just fine
But that isn't how I feel
Soon we will be through this trial
We'll put this in the past
I'll hold your hand and see your smile
And I will breathe at last
I feel I'm fighting tears
I am struggling to take a breath
Haven't been this afraid in years
I'm working hard to keep my calm
Don't want to have you worry
I feel this room is much too warm
I want the time to hurry
I know worry is a useless thing
I know that fear's not real
I know that you will be just fine
But that isn't how I feel
Soon we will be through this trial
We'll put this in the past
I'll hold your hand and see your smile
And I will breathe at last
Tightrope
Each day is a struggle
A balancing act
Between real and daydream
Reality intact
I fight my way through it
Eyes on the prize
Things crashing around me
Life's compromise
This tricky old tap dance
There's no room to fail
Dreams crashing around me
Still, I prevail
The trick is the balance
No wobbling allowed
Fake it if you have to
Smile for the crowd
For life is a tightrope
There's no easy way
Step out and be fearless
Make this your day
A balancing act
Between real and daydream
Reality intact
I fight my way through it
Eyes on the prize
Things crashing around me
Life's compromise
This tricky old tap dance
There's no room to fail
Dreams crashing around me
Still, I prevail
The trick is the balance
No wobbling allowed
Fake it if you have to
Smile for the crowd
For life is a tightrope
There's no easy way
Step out and be fearless
Make this your day
Sunday, June 8, 2014
A Fractured Fairytale
We are a fractured fairytale
A most unlikely pair
I'm certain you have noticed
We don't conform to plan
No one has seen the likes of us
Nor do they understand
We are a fractured fairytale
Quite different from the rest
Our storyline makes little sense
With many twists and turns
At times it's gotten quite intense
Our love within us burns
And so our story moves along
No clue to how it ends
We are a fractured fairytale
And yet we muddle through
Side by side we cannot fail
Our fairytale came true
A most unlikely pair
I'm certain you have noticed
We don't conform to plan
No one has seen the likes of us
Nor do they understand
We are a fractured fairytale
Quite different from the rest
Our storyline makes little sense
With many twists and turns
At times it's gotten quite intense
Our love within us burns
And so our story moves along
No clue to how it ends
We are a fractured fairytale
And yet we muddle through
Side by side we cannot fail
Our fairytale came true
Saturday, June 7, 2014
Winter Wrestling
Snuggling under covers
Layered on the bed
Shivering twisting turning
Trying to get warm
Struggling to hold on
To my fair share
Stifling a giggle
I come up for air
Cannot find a comfortable
Way to lie
So many blankets that it's
Hard to breathe
Tangled in this mess I am
Wriggling free
Hoping you are not getting
Mad at me
Finally get my cold feet on
Your warm back
I sigh with relief,
It feels heavenly
I hate winter nights shivering
In my sleep
Love that you keep warming
My cold feet
Layered on the bed
Shivering twisting turning
Trying to get warm
Struggling to hold on
To my fair share
Stifling a giggle
I come up for air
Cannot find a comfortable
Way to lie
So many blankets that it's
Hard to breathe
Tangled in this mess I am
Wriggling free
Hoping you are not getting
Mad at me
Finally get my cold feet on
Your warm back
I sigh with relief,
It feels heavenly
I hate winter nights shivering
In my sleep
Love that you keep warming
My cold feet
Meaning
When it comes to the end
Of this life I am living
Will it have been enough
All the taking and giving
I was reading a book
And it started me pondering
Will it have been enough
It still has me wondering
What's this enough that's in question
The deeds or the love shared
When it's all said and done
Will it matter that I cared
I hope to be able
To look back with a smile
On a life filled with loved ones
When I walk my last mile
So, I guess that my answer
For now, anyway
Is to love and to be loved
At the end of the day
Of this life I am living
Will it have been enough
All the taking and giving
I was reading a book
And it started me pondering
Will it have been enough
It still has me wondering
What's this enough that's in question
The deeds or the love shared
When it's all said and done
Will it matter that I cared
I hope to be able
To look back with a smile
On a life filled with loved ones
When I walk my last mile
So, I guess that my answer
For now, anyway
Is to love and to be loved
At the end of the day
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Happily Ever After (Kiss A Toad)
Once upon a time I kissed a toad
I closed my eyes, to my surprise
Puckered up and kissed him
I knew of course he was no frog
I was convinced he was no prince
This kiss was not an accident
When I was done with that one kiss
Opened my eyes, to my surprise
There stood my future husband
And so it was my dreams came true
Fortunate kiss, now wedded bliss
It's toads forever after
I closed my eyes, to my surprise
Puckered up and kissed him
I knew of course he was no frog
I was convinced he was no prince
This kiss was not an accident
When I was done with that one kiss
Opened my eyes, to my surprise
There stood my future husband
And so it was my dreams came true
Fortunate kiss, now wedded bliss
It's toads forever after
Loves Remains
Prodding at the memory
An old wound, unhealed
Trying anything to hold on
Love slipping through my fingers
Damage revealed
There's no place to hide away
Curl around my pain
Concentrate on breathing
Tears slipping though my fingers
Loves Remains
An old wound, unhealed
Trying anything to hold on
Love slipping through my fingers
Damage revealed
There's no place to hide away
Curl around my pain
Concentrate on breathing
Tears slipping though my fingers
Loves Remains
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Coping
When it's quiet at night
When I'm alone with my memories
I can almost hear you
I stay still, so still
Hoping it was not a dream this time
I can almost feel you
You'll be fine, they say
You have to learn to move on
It's time
You should just keep busy
Don't worry, I say
I'm learning to move on
I'm fine
Just need a bit more time
You'll be fine, they say
As soon as you can move on
It's time
You should just keep busy
Go away
Oh, please
Leave me with my memories
I'm fine
I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine
When I'm alone with my memories
I can almost hear you
I stay still, so still
Hoping it was not a dream this time
I can almost feel you
You'll be fine, they say
You have to learn to move on
It's time
You should just keep busy
Don't worry, I say
I'm learning to move on
I'm fine
Just need a bit more time
You'll be fine, they say
As soon as you can move on
It's time
You should just keep busy
Go away
Oh, please
Leave me with my memories
I'm fine
I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine
Monday, June 2, 2014
Breathless
Catch me unaware
Steal my breath
With sweet kiss
Or sudden laughter
Run away with me
Once again
As if it were
The first time
Tangle your fingers with mine
As we walk
And we shall make of life
a stroll
Steal my breath
With sweet kiss
Or sudden laughter
Run away with me
Once again
As if it were
The first time
Tangle your fingers with mine
As we walk
And we shall make of life
a stroll
I Keep Falling
I remember the first time
I fell in love with you again
After months of confusion
Wondering if we weren't
Meant to be
You reached out to me
No hidden agenda
And I fell in love again
That was a gift
Learning love could return
Rekindle, re-bloom
In the blink of an eye
The feeling could rush back in
A tidal wave of emotion
So intense you gasp
In wonder
We two have fallen in love
Many times over the years
Always with each other
Always returning to the home
That is us
I fell in love with you again
After months of confusion
Wondering if we weren't
Meant to be
You reached out to me
No hidden agenda
And I fell in love again
That was a gift
Learning love could return
Rekindle, re-bloom
In the blink of an eye
The feeling could rush back in
A tidal wave of emotion
So intense you gasp
In wonder
We two have fallen in love
Many times over the years
Always with each other
Always returning to the home
That is us
It's been a grand journey
Looking forward to
Falling in love with you
Looking forward to
Falling in love with you
a
Again and again
Saturday, May 31, 2014
Night Song
The night it surrounds me
And sings me its love song
And fills me with yearning
With sweet sad impressions
On the edge of a memory
And love that runs deeply
I urge them come to me
These lovely old memories
These faded impressions
They tug at my heart strings
And fill me with longing
Of times past remembering
Of youth and its wanderings
Of life that is passing
And loved ones long taken
But loved, not forgotten
How gently the night sounds
Stir up these old feelings
And memories of love songs
The treasures that live on
I welcome the night song
As gently it plays on
And sings me its love song
And fills me with yearning
With sweet sad impressions
On the edge of a memory
And love that runs deeply
I urge them come to me
These lovely old memories
These faded impressions
They tug at my heart strings
And fill me with longing
Of times past remembering
Of youth and its wanderings
Of life that is passing
And loved ones long taken
But loved, not forgotten
How gently the night sounds
Stir up these old feelings
And memories of love songs
The treasures that live on
I welcome the night song
As gently it plays on
Dreams
There was a time when I was young
And life stretched out before me
I dreamt of love, a perfect match
Someone who would adore me
I pictured just how it would be
This life that we would build
With happy home and family
Each dream would be fulfilled
But life is complex, I have found
The choices unforeseen
It's twists and turns unfathomed
Wreak havoc of our dreams
Yet even though the life I have
Is miles from what I planned
I find it's been a good life
With you to take my hand
All the tears and arguments
The troubles we've been through
Mean little, for I've realized
The dream I dreamt was you
And life stretched out before me
I dreamt of love, a perfect match
Someone who would adore me
I pictured just how it would be
This life that we would build
With happy home and family
Each dream would be fulfilled
But life is complex, I have found
The choices unforeseen
It's twists and turns unfathomed
Wreak havoc of our dreams
Yet even though the life I have
Is miles from what I planned
I find it's been a good life
With you to take my hand
All the tears and arguments
The troubles we've been through
Mean little, for I've realized
The dream I dreamt was you
Always
Always was once a game I played
How long have I loved you
How long will we be one
Always, of course, always
But disappointments keep building
And hopes have been shattered
Leaving always behind us
Our dreams are in tatters
Still, I keep on smiling
Surely things will get better
I want us to matter
and I wonder who I'll be
Now my dreams are in tatters
So, I keep on pretending
As if everything's fine
Hopes and dreams lying shattered
We've run out of time
I'm all out of time
How long have I loved you
How long will we be one
Always, of course, always
But disappointments keep building
And hopes have been shattered
Leaving always behind us
Our dreams are in tatters
Still, I keep on smiling
Surely things will get better
I want us to matter
and I wonder who I'll be
Now my dreams are in tatters
So, I keep on pretending
As if everything's fine
Hopes and dreams lying shattered
We've run out of time
I'm all out of time
The Chimes
The chimes they play their lilting tune
The melody uncharted
I listen as the changing wind
Creates a tune that has no end
Unsure of when it started
There is no chance to duplicate
The liquid lulling tune
The dulcet random melody
Grows louder now then fades away
Fading all too soon
I love to hear this concert play
No clue to the next line
I find that I am mesmerized
Immersed in winds own harmony
Music nature wrote
The melody uncharted
I listen as the changing wind
Creates a tune that has no end
Unsure of when it started
There is no chance to duplicate
The liquid lulling tune
The dulcet random melody
Grows louder now then fades away
Fading all too soon
I love to hear this concert play
No clue to the next line
I find that I am mesmerized
Immersed in winds own harmony
Music nature wrote
The Days
So swiftly do the days go by
Dazzling in their hurried flight
Like shooting stars across the sky
Blink of an eye
Flare upon the night
Oh, to gather up these days
Learn the way to make them last
To savor them along the way
The living of the days
Make memories for our past
Dazzling in their hurried flight
Like shooting stars across the sky
Blink of an eye
Flare upon the night
Oh, to gather up these days
Learn the way to make them last
To savor them along the way
The living of the days
Make memories for our past
Friday, May 30, 2014
Beautiful Mom
Beautiful
Endearing
Accessible
understanding
Thoughtful
Inspiring
Funny
Unforgettable
Loving
mom
Endearing
Accessible
understanding
Thoughtful
Inspiring
Funny
Unforgettable
Loving
mom
Empty Pages
Life is sharper with you gone
It has edges I didn't know existed
Where pain slices me
Unexpectedly
I find myself standing
Frozen in mid thought
Tears streaming
From no apparent wound
I'm not sure I'll make it
This world has no warmth left
I am empty pages
No will to write anymore
It has edges I didn't know existed
Where pain slices me
Unexpectedly
I find myself standing
Frozen in mid thought
Tears streaming
From no apparent wound
I'm not sure I'll make it
This world has no warmth left
I am empty pages
No will to write anymore
Loves War
There's no peacefulness to our sleep
We toss and turn beneath
Tangled covers
As if there's a war on
Why are we so angry all the time
When did being together
Become this struggle for territory
When it used to be a happy
Compromise
Do you remember
How you said my smile
Could turn around your darkest day
And you would lean close
To smell my hair
Do you remember
How I would reach for you
In my sleep
So a part of us
Was always touching
We can get back there
We can end this war
That neither started
Nor can win
The love is here
Where it always has been
We toss and turn beneath
Tangled covers
As if there's a war on
Why are we so angry all the time
When did being together
Become this struggle for territory
When it used to be a happy
Compromise
Do you remember
How you said my smile
Could turn around your darkest day
And you would lean close
To smell my hair
Do you remember
How I would reach for you
In my sleep
So a part of us
Was always touching
We can get back there
We can end this war
That neither started
Nor can win
The love is here
Where it always has been
Saturday, May 24, 2014
Love Lost
It rained the day you left me
I never will forget
The pain that bloomed within my chest
The choking lump that stole my breath
My life one vast regret
How did we come to this impasse
I feel completely lost
We were the best that we could be
We wanted all that life could give
No matter what the cost
I don't know how to do this
I cannot bear the pain
The thought today that we are through
A future where there is no you
I shall not love again
I never will forget
The pain that bloomed within my chest
The choking lump that stole my breath
My life one vast regret
How did we come to this impasse
I feel completely lost
We were the best that we could be
We wanted all that life could give
No matter what the cost
I don't know how to do this
I cannot bear the pain
The thought today that we are through
A future where there is no you
I shall not love again
Cloudy
I love to wake to a cloudy day
When I have nowhere to go
Nothing urgent needs doing
I can wake up nice and slow
It's as though the day is muffled
The clouds have softened sound
And the day is mine for lingering
While there's no one else around
The light is strangely filtered
Smooth edges, none too bright
It makes for gentle waking
So slowly comes the light
When I have nowhere to go
Nothing urgent needs doing
I can wake up nice and slow
It's as though the day is muffled
The clouds have softened sound
And the day is mine for lingering
While there's no one else around
The light is strangely filtered
Smooth edges, none too bright
It makes for gentle waking
So slowly comes the light
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Sweet Obsession
Oh, my love
My sweet obsession
How I yearn for your light touch
Oh, my soul
My sweet possession
Never dared to love this much
First you came
You smiled so sweetly
My poor heart was all undone
How could I
Stand by so meekly
Knew from the start you were the one
When I was
Alone and lonely
Hopelessness within me churned
Now it's you
I long for only
You arrived and hope returned
Years have passed
We're still together
Life and love now intertwined
If I thought
You'd leave me ever
I fear I would lose my mind
My sweet obsession
How I yearn for your light touch
Oh, my soul
My sweet possession
Never dared to love this much
First you came
You smiled so sweetly
My poor heart was all undone
How could I
Stand by so meekly
Knew from the start you were the one
When I was
Alone and lonely
Hopelessness within me churned
Now it's you
I long for only
You arrived and hope returned
Years have passed
We're still together
Life and love now intertwined
If I thought
You'd leave me ever
I fear I would lose my mind
Life is for Laughter*
Life is for laughter
And sharing and growing
For teaching and learning
The things worth the knowing
It's taking the time
To reflect with a smile
On the wonderful friends
I've enjoyed all the while
My life is just brimming
With loved ones who share
The good times and bad times
The joy and despair
To all of my loved ones
And dear friends I speak of
I thank you for all of
Your laughter and love
And sharing and growing
For teaching and learning
The things worth the knowing
It's taking the time
To reflect with a smile
On the wonderful friends
I've enjoyed all the while
My life is just brimming
With loved ones who share
The good times and bad times
The joy and despair
To all of my loved ones
And dear friends I speak of
I thank you for all of
Your laughter and love
I
You killed me
With your cruel asides
Or worse
Your silence
You crushed me
Was that your intention
All along
Not surprised
But I'm strong
Stronger than you thought
I survived
And moved on
Now I stand
With your cruel asides
Or worse
Your silence
You crushed me
Was that your intention
All along
Not surprised
But I'm strong
Stronger than you thought
I survived
And moved on
Now I stand
Free of you
I have won
I have won
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