Dichotomy

I am pain
I am sorrow
I am choking on tears
I have been for years
And will be tomorrow

As I weep
I am healing
I am learning to let go
Of things too hard to know
And pain I'm still feeling

I am calm
I am giving
I am learning to treasure
Both sorrow and pleasure
All the aspects of living

I am joy
I am laughter
It's all a part of me
Now beginning to see
The life I am after