Unraveling

What do you want from me
Do you feel our connection
Tenuous as a thread
Stretched beyond limit
Tensions mounting

Do you feel our chances
Slipping away
Leaving us grasping
For things to say
On safer ground

What do you want from me
Is what we have enough for you
Our polite hello's
Whispered
While balancing on eggshells
As the hurdles become
Insurmountable
Impossible

This isn't what I pictured
The bond we shared was unbreakable
Or so I thought
Now everything is unravelling
Under the weight of things
Left unsaid
Trust lost
Hearts broken
Connection unravelling

j e billheimer

Possibilities

I dwell in possibilities
No limits I'll put on my days
I'll chance the inconsistencies
I'll dance with probabilities
And dawn will find me lifted up
For darkness never stays

For when my life has run its course
And life will have its way
I'll gather up life's treasured hours
I'll know that fear has lost its powers
For never did I spare a glance
At those who never took a chance
On all the possibilities

j e billheimer

You and I

You
Who held me as a child
Who loved me for myself
Who gave without regret
Are irreplaceable

I
Who always needed help
Who wanted to be free
Who acted self-assured
Am inconsolable

You
Who taught me how to laugh
Who sang the lullabies
Who kissed away my tears
Are unforgettable

I
Will love you all my life
Will cherish all our days
Will carry on this life
And miss you all my years

j e billheimer

Random Acts of Living

I want my life to be brave and kind
Want to have my say
Want to speak my mind

I want my life to be full of dance
Want to spread my wings
Want to take the chance

I want my life to be full of song
Want to take a breath
Want to sing along

j e billheimer

Ode to a Whirlwind

May I define you by what you add 

To my life

The joy I feel knowing you see me
As I wrap your love around 

My shoulders
Like a warm blanket, a shield

Do you know how your love

Empowers me
The courage I find at hand because of you
I know you don't have any idea

How powerful you are
What is accomplished 

Because of your strength

You empower me with a full understanding
And graciousness that astounds
You are a whirlwind

I, the leaf

j e billheimer

Random Moments

Watching you 

As you lie sleeping
Kissing you awake, you smile
Hold me close 

Whisper secrets
Taking time to love awhile

Candy sweet 

These gentle wakings
Time to share a thought or two
Tell me

Did you sleep all right, love
Random moments spent with you

This is what 

I always hoped for
Stolen moments, just we two
Touching, smiling 

Treasured moments
Random acts of loving you

j e billheimer