CJB

I stand holding a book
Clutched to my chest
Forlorn

Memories of you
Written by loved ones
Fill the pages
I can't remember the last time
I looked at it

I don't remember where
I had it stored
Or why it showed up now
Out of the blue
Blue like your eyes

Pain refreshed
Love remembered
Loss recalled

Bittersweet memories of you
I wouldn't trade
For the world

Sorrows Hold

When will this longing aching need
Cease to steal my peace of mind
When will I wake from slumbers hold
Mind free from sorrows weary grasp
Soul free to soar unbound at last

How can such losses be endured
Can will alone complete this task
If I but set aside the pain
And say goodbye with heavy heart
Then will my freedom I attain
Then shall my soul be free again

Sleep

When I'm tired but restless
In need of some relief
I yearn to find that tantalizing
Reenergizing
State of bliss
The state that we call sleep

It's true that we all crave it
The longing is so deep
That often times I daydream
Of stretching out
And drifting off
To lovely, lovely sleep

Yet when my day is over
And to bed I finally creep
In bed my eyes snap open wide
I toss and turn
Back, stomach, side
I can't succumb to sleep

But, ah, those times we do achieve
That wondrous elusive state
We snuggle down with heavy sigh
Roll over and
Attain the prize
Ah sleep, most blissful state

Turmoil

To Bed! To Bed! My body said

Your eyes they are half closed

Turn off our brain and get some sleep
Now is the time for counting sheep
Not messing with some prose

But what if as we start to doze
My brain now asks my body
I suddenly hear metered rhymes
Or better yet those ceaseless chimes
And we must tell somebody

Enough! Enough! My body cries
We need to get some rest
This can't go on both day and night
I'll look a mess by mornings light
And can't be at my best

Okay! Okay! my brain cajoles
I see I must comply
I'll do my best to shut it down
You go and lay that body down
We'll both give sleep a try

A New Direction

A new direction is leading me

 Away from you

I didn't know that's what is was

Going to do

I wanted to be different 

break my old routine
Thought I'd make a change 

From where I had been

Wanted to take a different route

See a different view
I didn't know the route would lead 

Away from you

I struggle with the changes my new
Views require
If I said I wasn't sorry I would        

Be a liar

But I'm also feeling selfish and I need

To try
Didn't know this new direction would
include goodbye

Intuition

He sang to me over the phone
Before our first date
I knew what I was doing
When I said
I would go out with him
That very night
I knew

This is crazy
They told me
How could you possibly know
After only a few hours
In his company
Impossible to know
I knew

He still sings to me
And plays his guitar
And, perhaps it was crazy
That I knew
I would love him
All my life
But 

I did know

Three Random Kisses

With three random kisses
You completely stole my heart
You leaned right in with your sweet grin
You had me from the start

Each moment that I spend with you
Is more precious than the last
You refresh me without effort
You free me from my past

I hope someday to let you know
Just what you mean to me
How hearing you say grandma
Makes me happy to be me