Insomnia

Sleep eludes me
Thoughts keep churning
Mind keeps whirling
As world keeps turning
a dizzying cycle
Without purpose

Exhausted

Life

you just can't know how tired I am
my eyes hurt-scratchy, achy
my limbs feel heavy and numb
it feels kinda hard to breathe

No, I'm not depressed
Depressed about what?
I'm just tired
Tired
Don't you get it?
I have a lot on my mind
Too much to do
I can't get it all done

Why would you even say that
I'm not being dramatic
I'm not complaining
or making things up
I like my life
I don't mind helping out
I'm just tired
I'm just tired
that's all.

Just so damned tired

Worthless

Don't be so careless, I said
This could be important
Don't be so callous
I cried
Not everyone lives for the moment

Don't be so foolish, he said
Nothing really has value
Don't be so fragile, he smiled
It must be hard to be you

Don't be so heartless, I said
I used to feel important
Don't leave me broken
I cried
I loved you until this moment

Don't be so dramatic, he said
Your love really has no value
Don't look surprised, he smiled
I have no more use for you

Where did I go wrong
I know it was all my fault
How can I make him love me again
When I have no value

Edge of Sanity

I find at times I'm questioning my sanity
feel the world around me growing thin
my concentration's going, at least that's how
it seems
Unsure of what's reality and what are dreams
This state of pure confusion that I'm in

My memories seem current and today's a dream
I'm losing touch, can't keep it all in line
It's frightening, this struggle to win the race
I need a chance to reconnect this time and place
I'm fairly sure I'm running out of time

If one day I forever lose my fight to stay
in the world where all my loved ones dwell
Will I even notice the different road I'm on
Will my loved ones stare and wonder where I have gone
Slipped forever, into my private hell

My Second Chance

You seldom get the chance to try anew
A second chance to capture love so true
There was a time when life was mine to taste
I spent my love on choices made in haste
Second chances should not go to waste

Mired down by hopelessness and dreams undone
The second chance has slipped right through my hands
So full of empty longing I can only stand
And watch as old mistakes wreak future plans
Despair is mine that now I understand

The blame is mine alone, I took a chance
I thought I was much smarter at this game
Yet in the end I stand here on my own
Left to live this life of mine alone
Still longing for a love I've never known

Autumn

Autumn mornings glistening
with dew and frost
Wisps of fog are lifting with the dawn
Trees are wearing season's
 gaudy colored leaves
Brilliant hues are dressed on every one

Autumn's varied jewels
 tantalize the eye
Crimson and burnt orange touching azure blue
Emerald green carpet
splashed with golden sun
Nature dressed in jewels for our view

Moments with you

Waking to the sound of rain upon the glass
Snuggled deep inside my warm cocoon
Drifting in that haze between dream and wake
Cuddled snug with you in our chilled room

I'm storing up these moments of you and I
The gentle way you hold me as I sleep
For I know it won't be long now til you're gone away
And I'll treasure every memory as I weep