Forever Changed

You will be forever changed
Not by the loss
Although it etches itself on your
heart
But by the gain
Knowing that you loved, really loved
and lost
It makes you more than
you were before
More understanding
More empathetic
More appreciative
More

Worth the love
the work, the loss
But she was
Oh she was

Love is always worth the loss
Rejoice!
For you have loved
and you are
Forever changed

When I lost my sister at only 22
I asked my mother
how she stood the loss
"I try to look at it this way"
she said
"When she was born, when they
put her in my arms, if they had told me
I could only have her for
22 years
I would have taken her anyway.
Anything less is saying
she wasn't worth it."

I can do this

I think I could do this
I do
If I could just figure out
how to get past the pain
the pain
the 50 foot wall of pain

If I can just stay
on task
I think I could do this
I'm sure others have done
and I
I'm sure I'm as strong as they

It's just reality
just that
that's trying to break me
I can face reality
I'm strong
I am I'm strong I am strong

It's just that it was so
Unexpected
You leaving like that
but
I can do this, I can

I can

Choices

I want to read no more hate
is there a place for me
I want to clear out the craziness
and anger that threatens to
sear my heart
I fear insanity

Where did the kindness go
it once was all around
Now hatred beats me down
at every turn and threatens
my very soul
I mourn humanity

Do we learn to take back
the love that once was ours
Or bow our heads in misery
giving in to our despair
and bitter tears
for all eternity

Summer in the Mountains

Brilliant shards of sunlight
Slicing through the trees
Butterflies like promises
Float on the breeze

Flickering of shadows
Battering my eyes
Summer in the mountains
Dazzling surprise

Soulmate

Can you promise me sunshine
Days filled with joys such as others
can only dream of

Can you grant me love songs and
poetry
to fill my heart to bursting
from such bliss

Do you promise me contentment
Years spent in easy camaraderie
knowing each others unspoken thoughts

Say yes, oh please, do answer yes
for these sweet promises will
capture me
For love, this love, is sweeter
still
my soulmate, promise me

Life's end

There is nothing I have done
in this life of dreams and sorrow
that I would trade away
for just one more glad tomorrow

I feel reality shift and tilt
the end is here, or soon it shall be
and all the things that I hold dear
are smoke and mirrors, sweet slim reality

The voices rise, too soon they're fading
Loved ones close, yet then depart
My life is done, I'm slipping quietly
Slowing now, be still my heart

The Pledge

I stand and stare out at the world
As darkness takes its final breath
And light seeps round the edge
I revel in the quiet grace
And here I make my pledge

I shall not live this life of mine
In worried thoughts and sad regrets
Of things I have not done
But turn my face up to the dawn
And glory in the sun

Tho' while it's true that I may have
A shorter time upon this earth
Than ever I can tell
It shan't be said that I have gone
Without that I lived well