Someday

Someday I'll walk with you again
Hand in hand we will be together
But for now our time is through
And this, the storm that I must weather

I thought that you would be here always
Never a thought of me, alone
But in my heart you still are near
And with this thought I'll carry on

Someday we'll walk again together
This, the thought that keeps me strong
Until that time, I'll hold my memories
With you is where my love belongs

j e billheimer

Family Matters

So much harder than I could have
guessed
This honesty you now expect from
me
Now I realize how often I have
bowed
How often I have smiled and played
along
Don't make waves
It may cause problems
Shhhh
Don't

Don't say too much
Don't rock the boat
If you do, they may not love you
Shhhh
Take their love away
Tomorrows another day
Shhhh

Don't disagree

j e billheimer

Passionate

How welcome carefree time and
open air would be
How welcome time alone together
you and me

The pleasure of some quiet time
to spend within
The treasure of an afternoon
in my own skin

To wallow unrepentant
self-indulgent days
To squander languid leisure
in a summer haze

To sip a glass and daydream,
nothing else to do
To lie in torpid sunshine 
wrap myself in you

These agonizing longings writhe
beneath my skin
These passionate emotions
which are deep within

This burning blinding madness
Which now rides my soul
This yearning sweet loves gladness
That now makes us whole

j e billheimer

Edge of Reason

I stand here on the edge of reason
Fearing for my sanity
Mood as changing as the season
This madness that hangs over me

Caring not for my tomorrows
Time a friend to me no more
Searching for an end to sorrow
Eyes upon a distant shore

Then you came upon me, wooing
Offering to share my sorrow
So your love was my undoing
And our love now my tomorrow

j e billheimer

Daydreaming

I am dreaming of you

Although my eyes are open
And I am wide awake
I find I'm dreaming of you
With every breath I take

Daydreams which beguile me
They have right from the start
All my thoughts are captive
As well as is my heart

I never was a dreamer
or thought dreams could come true
But now my daydreams flourish
All because of you

j e billheimer

Winter of the Soul

There are times my soul is tired
Fighting tears of pure despair
My spirit drained of all reserves
Depleted, broken, uninspired
I feel myself become despondent
unable to break free
from this winter of the soul
which had taken over me

Yet, winter has its ending
and so shall come the spring
A springtime of the spirit
is coming over me
It's lifting up my spirit
and warming now my heart
Awakening my senses
I am yearning now to start

Memories trail like footprints in the sand

My words are now my playground
my emotions poetry
Love plays sweet my melody
as life becomes my song
I find my strength returning
and thrill to sing along

j e billheimer

New Beginnings

She's painfully aware she's breaking
all the rules
She's spent a lifetime living others dreams
She knows this path she's taking now is hurting
those she loves
A journey so much harder than it seems

But doesn't she deserve to live a life
that's truly hers
A life where others see her as she does
If all this time they loved her while she followed
all their rules
Is she now to spend her life without her loves

I hope that others come to see as clearly
as I do
The truth that all should follow their own dreams
For loving happens best when we let others
be themselves
Let go and love, much easier than it seems

j e billheimer