In your own skin

To know you live a life that's not quite real
To know you have to hide the way you feel
To squander years spent trying to fit in
No answer to this struggle from within

To wonder if this battle can be won
To question this whole process you've begun
Still searching for the life you're dreaming of
Still trying to shield the people that you love

To question, can you do this on your own
To wonder, will you now live life alone
To worry over choices you have made
So steep, the final prices that are paid

Grappling with the questions and the pain
Hoping life will bring you love again
Knowing this is what you're meant to do
Embracing life where you are really you

j e billheimer

Music

How I love to hear the music
Doesn't matter what the song
When the music begins playing
Tap my foot and sing along

Doesn't matter, type of music
Whether banjo or trombone
When the  music starts a playing
 My soul soars, I'm not alone

Some folks never hear the music
Some folks only sing one song
I rejoice that I can hear it
And I love to sing along

Can't imagine life without it
All the many melodies
Love them all, they fill my being
Living life in all its keys

j e billheimer

Sorrows Shared

Please, make no mistake about my tears
Tears are not a sign that I am weak
Although I know that is how it appears
When tears are making tracks upon my cheek

Emotions sometimes get the upper hand
When I am witness to my loved ones pain
That's when my tears and strength go hand in hand
And in the end the strength is what remains

In times of greatest sorrow and despair
Mourning times and loved ones we have lost
The memories and tears we need to share
Remind us how the love is worth the cost

I would not trade the times of sorrows shared
For life without the tears those sorrows bring
I cannot wish I hadn't cried or shared
This life of love so worth remembering

j e billheimer

Self Indulgent Doesn't Work for Me

I need a really good cry
something seriously indulgent
I'm feeling completely overwhelmed
like life is harder than it should be
and I am wallowing in self pity

I need a kick in the ass
something to move me from my apathy
I'm feeling terribly self indulgent
like life is harder than it should be
and I am the only one struggling

I need a dose of reality
something to make me feel alive again
I'm feeling life isn't really my best friend
like I work harder than the next guy
and I deserve a bigger break than some

I need a closer look at who I am
something to show me I am my best friend
I'm feeling life is mine to own again
like opportunity's around the bend
and I can grasp it and be free again

j e billheimer

Weep No More

Weep no more for me, my love
Although our time for now is through
I am but a breath away
And I shall always be with you

Dry your tears and carry on
Live your life with joy and laughter
We will meet again someday
Then will be our ever after

j e billheimer

Entangled

Skin pressing skin in silent plea
Wrapped in the haven
 of your loving arms
This soothes my soul, twining you and me
Lost in a world
of sweet reverie

Quiet as a sunrise, soft as loves first kiss
This gentle sharing
of our nights and days
Entangled in your arms to dream, sweet bliss
I could stay wrapped forever
with you like this

j e billheimer

Someday

Someday I'll walk with you again
Hand in hand we will be together
But for now our time is through
And this, the storm that I must weather

I thought that you would be here always
Never a thought of me, alone
But in my heart you still are near
And with this thought I'll carry on

Someday we'll walk again together
This, the thought that keeps me strong
Until that time, I'll hold my memories
With you is where my love belongs

j e billheimer