Patterns in Darkness

I am nothing
within the vacuum
where I now exist
I hear nothing
I feel nothing

The emptiness
within my very soul
is hollow
A blank canvas
full of nothing

My fire burned so brightly
it consumed me
burned right
through me
and left nothing

Broken hearts
Shattered dreams
Bitter memories
Tears stream
Til there is
Nothing

Did you

Did you ever
know exactly what you were going to say
and have it happen
just like that

Did you ever
meet someone you knew was essential
with no surprise
like coming home

Did you ever
wish for a second chance
to reach out
and touch a dream

Did you ever
let go of all your fears
and let life
lead the way

A Perfect Fit

And there you were
just where I knew you would be
waiting for me

I breathe you in
headiness a teasing taste
along my senses

Run my fingers
a tickling along your spine
I hear you sigh

My homecoming
sliding between the sheets
you welcome me

My Song

In the quiet heart of night
There's a song only I can hear
This song, it  helps me to believe
I am who I am meant to be
My song breaks gently on my ear
This song that only I can hear

I cherish this, my quiet time
Where only I can hear my song
At night there's no one here to say
I don't fit in, I don't belong
In deepest night I can be strong
At night alone I sing my song

This is when I build my dreams
In darkest night, alone I sing
Here I heal life's unkind days
And cherish all that life can bring
It's here I let my spirit fly
At night I sing my lullaby

Stifling

Can you feel it
The loss of breath
The feeling you are being crushed
Beneath others expectations

How did this happen
When did you decide
What they needed was more important
Than your hearts desire

These burdens are not yours
You did not ask
For their direction
You cannot live up to their expectations
So don't try

Let them go
Breathe deep and exhale
Let them go
With the breath you no longer need
Breathe your own life

Monumental

Do you not wish to devour the lovely
lusty love we are feeling
can you deny your heart
How can you say that you are
not standing there with senses reeling
this shall be our start

Vision blurred I close my eyes now
heightened senses leave me screaming
each extends beyond its breaking
this is not some hopeless dreaming
that cannot stand on its own
This is love left for the taking

I cannot deny my soul
with platitudes that hold no value
I am now your love to hold
can I trust you to be gentle
shield my love from careless whimsy
Our love shall be monumental

Media Madness

Bitterness seems to be the food
that the masses now consume
certain of their futures gloom
eating hearty of the feast
bitterness is no release

Each sad story, fear entrenches
hide your heart and blind your eyes
why do we put up these fences
take away our power to try
without ever asking why

Stand and shout against the madness
let the bitterness release
don't let fear and hatred guide you
understand hate is the beast
Sharing hatred now must cease
Only love will bring us peace

Come with Me

Do not take my dreams from me
for sweet dreams are all that's left me
don't you see the joy that comes
from summer dreams tossed carelessly
upon the sands of my sweet life

You have no hold over me
my dreams are afire within me
I cannot be broken now
love has come into my life
and evermore shall I be joyful

Try no more to tell me nay
don't you see that I am gladdened
by each love that comes my way
nothing now can break my spirit
Life and love are now my treasures

Come, and share my journey now
Don't you see, you can be joyful
Share my vision, share my dreams
life is here now for the taking
Gladness be our joyful waking

Love and joy ours for the taking

Meanderings

Having a heart to heart with myself
Debating where inspired poetry begins
In the depths of despair
or enlightened discovery
I pondered the question
I argued within
Where to begin

Such lovely and lonely heartfelt
meanderings
of poetic tragedy have left me
near weeping
Very near to believing
the poems most effective
at sharing emotions
grew from great suffering
unrelenting sorrow

But what of the poems
their message uplifting
In pretty surroundings of
laughter and home
These writings hold meaning
to those who can listen
Creating a joy felt
down to your toes

I shuttered my eyes
and slowed down my breathing
So I could just think
each aspect in turn
I hoped I could quiet
my own inner turmoil
and gather my resources
around me like home

Then something amazing
came tapping my senses
A soothing and calming
sweet drumming outside
The raindrops were pounding
and dripping and playing
an age old sweet number
that reached deep inside
Where I found my answer

It matters not at all
what you say or you do
the answer was now crystal clear
Poetry speaks to each in its own way
The message will only come through
If the poem is speaking to you

Failure

Without bitterness or blame
I must admit
I am broken
Shattered within
Where no one can see
But me

I did it again
I am so hopeless
I never learn
Mistakes repeated
Are quiet tragedies
Indeed

Enigma

So much more
than the sum of her parts

She stands on her toes
with a determination and control
that is fierce
arms raised in uncanny grace

In balance with
a freedom of spirit
The envy of most
without bitterness witnessed

Where did she come from
How can she possess
such steely wisdom
tempered by gentle heart

She is mighty
Belonging to herself
Unconscious of her
importance
Captivating without
pretentiousness

Glorious being
This I see
This is she

For Nan

I know you don't know
how incredible you are
I can tell you don't understand
How very valuable you are

The things that you do
stand alone to be sure
But even without them
You are incredible

It's in the way that you love
The gifts that you share
We all like ourselves
a bit more when you're there

It's the way that you question
the things that you do
The concern that is present
when helping us through

We love you, you're precious
to all those you touch
the indelible you
that we all love so much

Sorrow

I want to open a bottle of
forgetfulness
climb inside and hide away
from all the pain that's eating me
can't face another day

I want to find a place of
quiet refuge
and rock away my emptiness
I've never felt this way before
I wish I could feel less

I feel so tired, I'll fight no more
I'm broken, through and through
I need some time to hide away
I don't know what to do

I don't know what I'll do

Savor

Closing my eyes
To better savor each note
The lilting melody
Speaks to me
Emotions swell
Within my being
My breathing changes

Good music brings a smile
Great music steals my breath
With naked longing
Ah, Chopin
Nocturne in C Sharp Minor
I am breathless

For K E

Sunshine bright
Her smile warms the very air
So that you breathe deeply
her radiance

Summer sweet
She sees the hidden beauty
in the straggly tangled fur
of the stray

Fiercely true
to her convictions
She shares her inner light
without a care

Summer Reverie

Oh, the tender moments that I chanced
to spend with you
The sweetness of long quiet afternoons
These are the treasures that I've
carried with me through my years
A heart near full to bursting with
these memories of you

I recall how we would wile away those
sultry summer days
filling them with loving, just we two
Such gifts of love, they say, are oft times
wasted on the young
Yet you and I, we understood the truth
and treasured all the
wealth of summer days

I have no trouble drifting back within
my memory
to summer days spent lazily with you
In reverie I slip the bonds
of melancholy here
Like yesterday the memories appear
the lovely sultry days of yesteryear

Forever Homeward Bound

I'll be coming home
when all the things I need to see
and all the trials left to me
Have found themselves depleted
I'll be coming home

This world is such a magic place
my life has many twists and turns
an urgent yearning within me burns
to experience each new face
to explore each new place

But in the end I'm homeward
bound
For though adventures have their lure
And teach me what I can endure
My home is where I'll end my days
Forever homeward bound

Shoulder

Would you tell me, love, if you needed me
If I could somehow lessen all your fears
would you share with me the burdens
that are weighing down your days
I keep fighting hard to just control my tears

These tears that seem so close they almost choke me
The tears that come from worrying for you
My fears that you wont tell me
that your losing ground you've gained
Afraid you won't share what you're going through

I want to be the shoulder you can lean on
to help you as you try to find your way
I hope you know that there is
nothing I won't do
To help you see the light of a new day