Fields of Green and Gold

The carefree days of yesteryear
Still linger in my memory
Such simple times and pleasures spent
In fields of green and gold

Joyous laughter shared still echoes
Close my eyes and I still hear
The glee filled shouts of distant childhood
In fields of green and gold

Vivien

Where'd you come from sassy pants
You fearless little wonder
How did you hypnotize me
What's this spell you have me under

You're much too bright for your young age
So quickly into trouble
Who know that such a little girl
Could cause gray hair to double

I should have known you'd dazzle me
My life you've torn apart
I can't deny you anything
Because you own my heart

Brycen

How quickly you have won my heart
Even though
I just met you
Loved you from the very start
Even though
I hardly know you

With each passing precious grin
In giant leaps
Oh, how my love grows
Put my heart into a spin
My love for you is
Overwhelming

Watch you grow so full of joy
Wondering
Who will you be
You're my own sons little boy
How the years flow
And my love grows

For Devera*

There once was a girl
So fragile and carefree
She lived her life her way
And played her own music
And nobody could see
This girl she was broken
Afraid no one would see
How deeply she felt things
And wanted to be free

She lived her life her way
And gave her love freely
To all who would love her
Or say that they loved her
She could not recover
Didn't want to discover
They might not have loved her
So gave herself freely
Not all butterflies are free

But then she was taken
And then she was broken
And none could protect her
We could not protect her
She never would see the
Joys of the morrow
And we are all sorrow
And we are all sorrow
There is no tomorrow

We long to embrace her
To tell her that we see
Who she wanted to be
We cannot replace her
Or pull our own hearts free
Of what we remember
Of fragile but carefree
Sweet fragile girl we see
That butterflies are free
As ever you will be

Running in Place*

I cannot get over
Though time keeps on passing
And life keeps progressing
And I keep on dancing
It's never so carefree
As young girls who are free
They never quite are free
They never can be me
I can't seem to get free

I keep on returning
To heart wrenching love lost
A loss I did not cause
Can't seem to get free of
Pain ties me with my love
Love binds me to this loss
Lost years and I'm still tied
Such pain cannot be denied

She's forever just out of reach
Beyond my sad memory's grasp
I keep searching and reaching
For a way to hold on
But she's gone and she's gone
Can't change all the tears cried
How I long for the better times
Carefree times before she died

How I search for the answers
To help me to say goodbye
Like why did she have to die
Why I still cry
Can't say goodbye
To sweet butterfly girl
Fragile girl gone too soon
Don't care if butterflies are free
It's just not enough for me
Don't think it can ever be
I may never be set free

Clarity

I looked at my life and found
So many things I was doing
Were dragging me down
Slowing me down

I couldn't see a clear path
My decisions had defeated me
Leaving me no choices
Spinning my own wheels

In hopelessness I muddled through
Keeping to a road that brought no joy
Unable to see a way out
No passage to a better place

Clarity of thought can't be explained
Suddenly the answers came fast and clear
The choices were mine, I had all the power
To pick and choose what to leave behind

The freedom comes from owning it all
Dwarfing the fears I had of change
I made bold moves, not afraid to fall
Knowing that life is now mine to own

Scattered Thoughts*

When I think of what I want to say
It drifts, skitters, slides away
I can't remember where I started
The trials of the day

It's vital when it comes to mind
It has to be set free
It must be said be shared be told
The secrets live in me

I feel I must shout out the tale
The message comes alive
Then in a moment...it's all gone
Just tatters to survive

I gather all my courage
Surely this will be the day
I'll say it all, it all comes clear
Before I fade away